I realized earlier that it had been a while since I had posted an update, so I'm gonna write one now. Obviously. Heh...anyway. Hows my situation? I honestly dont know anymore. No matter what I do, she doesnt seem to want to fix things. She's making way too many demands, or as she calls them "conditions", while I only have one. And that one she doesnt want to do. Even thought I did the same thing four years ago. It's called Give and Take, you know? But right now I feel that my whole marriage has been more give than take. All of her conditions I have said I'd do, but the one I want her to do, which involves moving to a new town so I can A: Get a job. B: Get out of the town I hate. C: Not have to live nextdoor to the guy that assaulted me. But she doesnt want to do it. And she tries to bring the kids in as one of her reasons why. My kids are young enough not to be affected by a move. I mean, Jarred is almost four and Lilly is almost one. Neither one of them would think either way of a move. But for my (current) otherhalf, thats one of her reasons.
But I honestly dont think she's thinking things through. She's also said she doesnt want to move away from her friends and family (which consists of just her mother). Yet I did the exact same thing befor we got married. I left my friends, my family, a job and now she's not willing to do the same? It's insulting in a way. But right now I've put the ball in her court. For the past day or so she's not spoken too me for some stupid reason or another, so this morning I sent her a text. Basicly I've told her I wont contact her untill next friday. During this time I want her to really figure out what she wants. I'm getting tired of being strung around. I dont deserve this shit. So now it's upto her where our marriage goes from here. She knows I'm willing to do whatever it takes to fix things, but right now it looks like she isn't.
So yeah. The balls in her court. Lets see what she seres, hmm? Peace, folks.
7 years, 9 months ago
15 Apr 2011 17:20 CEST