Well, I've been thinking about this for a long time now. I believe that I've finally decided to come out about who I truly am. Tomorrow, Friday April 15, I plan on telling the world that I am a bisexual furry. The reason I have waited so long is because I feel that my entire situation is well... unique. Other than “experimentation” when I was very young, I’ve never really had any sexual encounters. Some may ask how I know that I’m bi if I’ve never even “been with” anyone, but I know what I feel and I know who I like and I won’t accept anyone trying to change that. Besides the sexual part itself, I have always been somewhat anti-social. Yes I talked to people at school and maybe outside of school every once in a while for the first few years of high school (which was an all-boys school, but I don’t think that had much to do with it). It was only during my junior year (after I had given a speech in English class) that I decided that I was being too paranoid about letting others’ possible judgment affect me. I started coming out of my “shell” at that point. Perhaps it was this “late blooming” that kept me from really getting to know anybody. It was always hard for me to make friends, and it still is somewhat. It took me an entire semester of college to find some friends with whom I hang out virtually every day (I live a few hours away from my aforementioned best friend who stays near my home in Little Rock). I have just been afraid that, if I come out about who I am, I may lose everything I worked so hard to gain. But I suppose we will find out soon enough.
I'm going to tell my mom first. That will be the easy part since I already know that she would be fine with it (the bisexual part that is). The next person I will tell is my best friend for over 5 years. I have no idea what he's going to think, but after all of the stuff we've been through together (none of it sexual) I doubt he should be anything but surprised. I know there will be jokes thrown my way, and I’m fine with that. If he's hostile in any way, however, then I guess we know he wasn't that good of a friend anyway. Right? Finally, I will tell everyone else that I know via facebook. Yeah, I know that sounds kind of corny, but I have most of my family added as friends. My family lives 1600 miles away, and I don’t feel like calling them all just to tell them. Once I come back up to the university, I will talk to my friends in person to see how they feel. If they never want to talk to me again, so be it. I will just have to make new, more accepting friends.
For anyone who has actually read this journal, Thank You. I would love to hear what others think and possibly get some words of encouragement. Lord knows I will need them.
P.S. Because of this new event, I will need a new user-name. I’m not very good at coming up with things like that so I would also love it if people gave me a few ideas. Maybe not of names themselves, but ideas of how I could come up with one.
7 years, 6 months ago
15 Apr 2011 08:36 CEST