It seems that way, Too often I feel excluded in all my friends are doing around me.
I'm always too shy to talk to people unless they message first, I've made and lost
many great friends because of this, because I won't start conversations I would be
forgotten about over time the only person I talked to about this shy behaviour acted
as though I was attacking them so I dared not speak of it again despite them being
a very close friend. It's been this way for far too long I meet wonderful people and
they simply fade away it makes a bunny very weary and more apprehensive around
new people. When I add people on im's or pm them I have a nervous inner monologue
running through my mind everytime before I do it, I love to chat with people which is the
odd thing. I'm just shy to say the first words. Often when I meet someone new and they
stop messaging fairly soon after I feel like I haven't read some handbook out there on
"how to be furry", I constantly feel as though I do things wrong and can never meet
other people expectations. How do you reach out to people, do you message first or
do as I do and sit and wait hoping they will show interest in you and message first.
I'm sick and tired of having people treating you as their brother one day and forget
who you even are before the month is though, I've lost too many friends from my
problem and honestly I'm lonely out here, I'm trying my best to keep a smile on my
face though for passerby's...
Nobody reads my journals so I can rest easy letting show my emotions for once.
6 years, 1 month ago
17 May 2013 08:06 CEST