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[RL] Update

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So, people might be wondering what's up with me. If you aren't, don't bother reading this journal. :P

In January I got laid off as part of downsizing. I was given... like, negative six hours of warning. I'd called in sick on a Friday, and that was the day everyone affected got their papers. I got called at, like, 3 in the afternoon. The economy and job market here sucks, but it's entirely impractical for me to move elsewhere at the moment.

I'm still on my medication. One of the side effects is that it's more or less flatlined my libido. Like, entirely. This is a rather personal thing to talk about, but it also affects my writing output, as I can't write anything good when I'm completely not interested in it. I'll be talking to my doc soon about discontinuing the drug, because I think I'd get much better results with 5-HTP and it has no side affects concerning libido. However, the unfortunate thing with the medication is that the effects on the sex drive can last for months after the drug is discontinued. I also expect that I'll have to wait possibly up to a month before I can start taking 5-HTP after I wean myself off my current medication to avoid Serotonin Syndrome.

On the upside, I recently had a physical, and aside from a few plainly obvious problems (I'm a tubbeh kitteh, for one), I'm in remarkably normal shape for someone my age. My cortisol level is normal if almost a little low, my cholesterol is fine, my blood pressure is normal considering my physical fitness, and my glucose is normal (which is awesome because my mother's side of the family has a predisposition to both obesity and diabetes). So things aren't a total wreck, just somewhat difficult right now.

I don't like to talk about my personal problems in a public forum, because there's no point in being whiny, especially when nobody else can do anything about it, but I know some people have been concerned, so I decided I should at least post a brief update.
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Added: 7 years, 7 months ago
 
sedkitty
7 years, 7 months ago
I hope things get better for you soon. *snug*
Shokuji
7 years, 7 months ago
Thanks for keeping us updated. *hugs* I hope things get lots better for you soon.
Zeikcied
7 years, 7 months ago
Glad to hear you're physically healthy.  I hope your medication gets sorted out.  And I really hope your job situation improves. *hug*
Alfador
7 years, 7 months ago
*hugs* Hope your situation improves soon!
MooseJam
7 years, 7 months ago
Sucks about the downsizing 'n' all but I do hope things get better for ya.
KevinSnowpaw
7 years, 7 months ago
Elix we do appreciate the update. Im a little dispointed in your Dr. For giving you those meds to start with and it doesn't sound like he warned you off all the risks.  Im still concerned for you as far as your finacial situation goes but sadly theirs nothing i can do for that.


As for the project between us, dont worry about it, like, at all. You can finish it when you finish it, if your disinterested at the moment then I wouldn't want you working on it anyway please just take your time, sort your life. Im more concerned about your situation then some words on a  page.
elix
7 years, 7 months ago
I specifically went to the doc for medication, so don't blame him. As far as the side effects, I received a significant quantity of information, including drug interactions, side effects, and the ominous warning to immediately seek medical attention if I have suicidal thoughts. Even the Wikipedia article for the drug I'm on didn't have any more information than the info packet I received until I checked it last month (and I've been on the medication since December).

I was considering asking for donations, but in light of the recent Kavi debacle, that's a subject I don't want to go anywhere near (but I can actually provide proof, like my paperwork when I got laid off). Plus, last time I asked for donations, I got nothing at all except for sympathetic responses from people who were also unemployed or otherwise financially in trouble and therefore unable to do anything to help. (And let it be known that I appreciated the words of support from those people. If only words had nutritional value.)
KevinSnowpaw
7 years, 7 months ago
i see so nobody had concrete eveidence on ALL the effects i guess. Still i hope your can be switched safely to a less harsh medication. As for the job situation at this point if I was you i would apply anywere and everywere. If you have not allready tried.

A Good place to start is any palce with high turn around there allmost allways hireing.
elix
7 years, 7 months ago
Neurochemistry is hardly an exact science. I don't think it's understood WHY SSRIs can cause suicidal thoughts in people under 24, or why the possible side effects of my medication are impotence, weight gain, sleepiness, and so on.
KevinSnowpaw
7 years, 7 months ago
for all the shit we think we know we realy are still children stumbling in the dark if you look at the grand scheme of things.
elix
7 years, 7 months ago
Once something gets through the blood/brain barrier, it's almost impossible to tell what chemically happens, without dissection. You can attach a radioactive tracer and observe through imaging, but that tracer compound changes the chemical simply by being there, so you don't know if what you observe is the normal reaction in the brain to the chemical. Mood medication is pretty much trial and error at this point, since the brain is a black box once you try and track what happens internally.
KevinSnowpaw
7 years, 7 months ago
i guess it realy is hit and miss.
Adilor
7 years, 7 months ago
Om nom nom, tasty words. :P

As several have said already, thanks for the update. Sucks that you got laid off. I've been in that situation a few times myself, in bad job markets too, so I know how it goes. I do hope things turn upward for you soon. :)
Sinaqui
7 years, 7 months ago
I'm glad to hear things aren't as bleak as I was worrying they might be, and I hope things turn around for the better for you soon. You know how to get in touch with me if there's anything I can do to help, too, and sorry for not saying hi, like, ever...
Gobby
7 years, 7 months ago
*huggles the kitteh.*  It's good to hear that you've got a clean bill of health.
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