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If I stop drinking I will lose my mind.
If I don't stop drinking I will lose my liver.

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Added: 5 years, 3 months ago
 
Norithics
5 years, 3 months ago
Time to find a less self-destructive vice.
ThaPig
5 years, 3 months ago
I have them all already.
Norithics
5 years, 3 months ago
In that case, it's time to knuckle down and figure out what's ruining your life so badly that you've gotta drink it all away.
ThaPig
5 years, 3 months ago
I guess among some other things, the fact I reached old age without achieving most of my goals and being stuck in a joyless job makes me frustrated and depressed to the point I need alcohol just to get though the day.
SpaceCat
5 years, 3 months ago
death by liver failure is NOT pleasant. I agree with Norithics, find something else to calm your mind that isn't going to kill you slowly. https://inkbunny.net/journalview.php?id=80709
ThaPig
5 years, 3 months ago
Thanks! I'll read when I'm sober... Oh wait, I'm never sober.
SpaceCat
5 years, 3 months ago
I can read while drunk. it just takes me a long time.
ThaPig
5 years, 3 months ago
Yeah me too... the problem is later I don't remember what I read.
Which reminds me to ask... is it normal (or abnormal but logical) that my memory is being affected? It could be other things, but I'm having serious problems with my short term memory lately.
SpaceCat
5 years, 3 months ago
I have a very good memory when it comes to certain things but yes, alcohol degrades your memory. Your balance too.
Rakaziel
5 years, 3 months ago
I usually try to vent my negative emotions through art or writing rants. Or RTS games, the gorier the better.
I do not touch alcohol because I know that I have an addictive personality.

Your memory problems may well be related to your alcohol consumption, or your depression. Other factors are to some degree your age and to a greater degree your diet. It could also be a psychosomatic result of wanting to forget.

What are your goals? Maybe some of them are salvagable or archievable on a smaller scale.
ThaPig
5 years, 3 months ago
I have no goals. At least no realistic ones. I had art block for months now. I wanted to finish my comic's present storyline and a couple of books but I don't have the inspiration to do them. And I have to work to survive, but my job drains the little energy I have left in me.

Wait... I have a goal. To build a submarine and go hunt for treasure.
Fairhart
5 years, 3 months ago
*hugs*
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