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AisyP

Depression, Pills and Updates...

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So I've been sort of MIA for a while and that's mostly because of a deep bought of depression. Which seems to be happening often. My medication doesn't seem to be working anymore... I have been really struggling and I've just been feeling worse and worse about my work, I just don't know what to. And yet I don't want to seem whiny and all that... I just don't know what to do anymore, and I've been pushing my boyfriend away, my friends are pushing me away... I feel so isolated, but then again, maybe that's just the depression thing... I don't even know if I should really post this, but I have to update and let you guys know why I haven't been here in a while. And I am very, very sorry...
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Added: 5 years, 4 months ago
 
NemoTVChampion
5 years, 4 months ago
I was getting worried when I stopped seeing you on skype ;3; *huggle*

AisyP
5 years, 4 months ago
I'm sorry... *hangs my head and sniffles*
NemoTVChampion
5 years, 4 months ago
ssshhhhshhhhh *snuggles* :'3
Wakka
5 years, 4 months ago
Iv been depressed before Aisy but im still hear. i got over it by keeping my mind busy. it wasn't easy but i got over it and i did so on my own. family wouldn't believe me when i told them so i was forced to endure it alone. keep your head up and your mind entertained Aisy and keep it cool and talk with your friends and inform them slowly about it and im sure they will help you out and like wise most of your IB friends will to. ^^_ we'll be hear for you when you need some one to talk with and so will i.

I hope you feel better soon Aisy.
AisyP
5 years, 4 months ago
Thank you, but I have been dealing with this for years, it wont just go away, I know that. But... I really do wish there was a fix, something that will keep me from ever being sad...
Wakka
5 years, 4 months ago
Iv been going on and off now for 5yr Aisy so i can relate to that. it'll get better im sure. i don't have any many moments as i did when i 1st started out.....maybe a few times a year but its gotten better over the years. ^^_
AisyP
5 years, 4 months ago
I see, sorry, I didn't mean to put your idea down or anything... It's just, I have bipolar, so it's so much harder for me to figure out how to cope...
Wakka
5 years, 4 months ago
I have my own disability but really its fine. im just a kind ol cyber mutt. X3
MeganBryar
5 years, 4 months ago
No need to be sorry. I know how difficult it is to have to try to deal with depression, and I'm sorry that you've felt so bad lately. No need to apologize for posting this, either. Sometimes, just getting things out in the open can help, at least a little, and everyone needs to vent sometimes. I just hope that you'll feel better soon, and that things will turn around for you.
AisyP
5 years, 4 months ago
Thank you... I don't know why, well, I have an idea, but I'm not sure... It's part of my genetics I know, so there's nothing I can really do besides try to take my medication, maybe up the dosage a bit... But I just feel like... Like my work isn't good enough anymore. Like I'm not feeling as great about the things I draw anymore. I feel like I'm not good enough... I know I shouldn't compare my work to others', but I do, because that's what helps me improve I think.
MeganBryar
5 years, 4 months ago
I understand that feeling all too well. There have been plenty of times when I've felt that my own work would never be any good. For whatever it may be worth, though, I think you do beautiful work. You have a cute style, and your grasp of expression and emotion in your work is some of the finest I've seen. As for comparing your work to what other people have done, that's very much a double edged sword. While it can help a lot to study how other people do things, so you can figure it out on your own, it can hurt a lot, too, when you find someone who is far better at some aspect of the art than you are, be it poses or coloring or whatever. But I think the thing to remember is that everyone's work is flawed in some way, and even the best artist in the world makes mistakes. Admire people for their skills and learn from them if you can, but always remember that your work isn't bad just because you have trouble with certain things, or because someone else is more technically skilled or more popular than you.

Anyway, I don't mean to lecture you. It's just that's something I've had to learn, myself, and I do find it kind of helps to keep those things in mind.
AisyP
5 years, 4 months ago
I really do appreciated it, I always look forward to what you and Grace have to say about a certain piece I do for either or both of you. And while I am still struggling with depression, I feel worse because I just stair at my work and see everything that's wrong with it. So I end up not getting anymore work done on it...
ButtercupSaiyan
5 years, 4 months ago
Hang in there!
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