After two weeks of being nutso about programming this dock thing, it's really taken a huge bite out of my drawing time. I did this Unico picture today and thought it looked fine when I was working on it, but I look back on it now and oh my god mistake after mistake. Flipping through pages of other people's art, all I can see is beautiful stuff and things I don't do in my own. I'd like to get back on the horse and re-learn a lot of shit. Sorry but no matter how skilled anybody thinks I might be, I know my faults and I'd like to fix them. I don't need to be smug or satisfied with what I do right now, I need to be angry at myself. For being lazy and thinking I don't need to keep up with drawing or painting or learning anything. I just....seriously need to make a big change in what I'm doing, because right now it feels like a struggle.
Some days I sit down here and decide on whether to program or to make art. Some days I'll program until I get frustrated and give up, then go right over to art. Other times, I'll be terrible at both. And of course I still owe people things. Argh! I hate feeling like this. Whatever this is....tomorrow i think I just need to do a shit load of drawing. Get out all those horrible drawings in the beginning, plow through it, then finally to some good stuff and refine it.
I used to make notes to myself when a drawing went well. I'd write down things like what I was focusing on, what was important, even what music I was listening to. Some artists tell me that they hold the idea of the form in their mind as they draw. Others told me that they see it in their mind and just draw it out. With me, it's sort of a vague idea rather than anything clear - maybe that's something I need to work on, nailing down a good clear idea before I draw. Another huge thing is anatomy, which yeah..I suck at. But somehow, I can make a shitload of lines on the canvas and suddenly be comfortable with what i'm doing lol. Once it's become this line mass, It's like clay. Something soft, not too definite, something you can mold.
Another thing I heard is good to do is to make a bunch of sketches of one idea from different angles and pick the best one. That's essentially what I used to do with OC. Yet today, here I am trying to do one finished thing at a time. Pff...that's a recipe for failure. Anywho, just getting this stuff off my chest. I don't talk about this stuff very often anymore so, there's like a ton of questions, fears, frustrations, and ideas in my head atm. I'll work it out. And I'll make myself a map to follow as I go along.
5 years, 5 months ago
03 Apr 2013 01:06 CEST