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Wreckin' it...

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[WARNING: This is a pretty big post. Not as big as some, but it has feels and rants and opinions that you might not necessarily give two shakes of a cat's tail about. But hey... Hopefully someone will read it all, and maybe it'll bring a smile! Or... Whatever. Screw it. Disclaimer over.]

So, I just got done watching Wreck-It Ralph.

Firstly, I LOVE THAT MOVIE! I don't care how many people were disappointed that there weren't more game references in it. I don't care that it's technically a kids movie (Though that point is debatable purely because Jane Lynch is in it. >.>).

IT'S SO GOOD! OMIGOD IT'S ADORABLE!

*Cough, sniffle... Wipes her eyes.*

... Okay fine. I did cry. Seeing Vanelope cry broke my heart... Seeing her un-filtered look of joy mended it all better and filled me with some serious feels, folks...

SERIOUSLY! MOVIE! GO SEE IT IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN IT ALREADY!

*Sigh* Okay, I'm done with the random gushing and raving...

Secondly... I'd like to get to the point of the feels this movie gave me.

Life sucks. A lot of us know this. Some more than others, for sure, but we aren't pointing fingers or trying to have a contest...

I recently had my hopes up really high that I was a perfect fit for a change of position at work... Not a demotion, or a promotion, just... a step sideways into a different department. One that I thought would help me cope with the monotony of life a lot easier, and give me something to look forward to every day, instead of dreading the sight of my workplace when it came into view...

They shot me down.

My own mistakes a few months ago (Mistakes which I've worked quite hard at fixing, and not taking what happened for granted anymore) screwed me on this one. A decision by management regarding that completely shut me down on my hopeful move. That means I won't get my change of scenery. I won't get my partial escape from the drudgery of dealing with the same crap over and over again, being blamed for the same problems again and again, etc... etc... You get the picture...

This hurt me... More than I expected...

I know I was to blame. I know my own issues compounded upon me heavily enough that I seriously screwed myself over...

But hey... Hopes are powerful, and when they're broken... it hurts. There aren't many feelings worse than that. True hope for a brighter side of life, crashing and burning like that... It hit me really damn hard.

It made me re-think a few things... And trust me, when I'm in a bad mood, especially when I'm far gone enough to be depressed, thinking is a bad thing.

I've been running a table-top role-play game in my own custom setting for years now, with my best friend in RL. I've come to the realization that after this long... nothing new is happening. All the same characters. All the same flavor of events... Even her character isn't doing anything new anymore. I'm bored with it. And that hurts to admit! This setting is important to me. This game is what forged the world I tell stories about. I have a LOT of stories to tell because of this damn roleplay...

... So I decided to end it. Maybe a good thing, maybe not... I don't know yet...

What does this have to do with Wreck-It Ralph? Well, after watching the movie, for the first time in months, I've felt... happy.

No movie has had this profound an effect on me since... Wall-E...

That movie is my favorite animated movie of all time. I bawled like a newborn baby near the end when the poor guy is cru-... AHEM. No spoilers. All you need to know is that I had some epic feels, and they made me appreciate things more.

This movie did something similar.

... I don't think it's good for me to fight against the flow of my life right now... Instead, I might try riding with it, and taking pleasure is the small things that I find along the way... Like being really good at my shitty job... Or making my customers actually smile and appreciate my knowledge... Or taking out the garbage and getting thanks from my friends at work, even though I didn't need to help them with that...

I dunno'... Maybe... But the movie gave me a bit of hope.

Maybe it could work for some of you? Or... Maybe it's just a great movie and it'll make you smile...

What I DO know, is that I need to get a commission done of Kitani kickin' ass with Vanelope von Schweetz. That kid is amazing.

... Alrighty. Done writing for now. Later folks...

~Kit
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MightBeFurry
5 years, 6 months ago
I wholeheartedly agree with ya on Wreck-It Ralph.. the video game references were appreciated, but it was the enjoyable characters, bizarre setting and quirky story that made it a joy to watch.

Also, I guess that's a sign that they "did it right" in that it evoked happiness in ya despite having one door shut in your face, and deciding to close another because you felt it might've been time. I don't know all the particulars of your work situation, but just hearing bits and pieces of it makes it sound like Ralph's dilemma in the movie, not being able to change jobs for whatever reason..

I've had a few movies give me an emotional supercharge that helped me shake off malaise, so I think I kinda know how you felt.
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