Some of you may know [iconname]Laporkra[/iconname], and a particular incident that had me rather upset. If not, here's the background.
First, I came across his page, and I really loved his profile image, so I stopped by his page and skimmed through it, eventually finding the pic and faving it, then watching him.
Pretty soon after, I found myself blocked and up popped a journal, where he explained some of the reasons he blocked some people, using language like "beyond creepy" and "repugnant". The flow of events made it seem very clear that those comments were directed at me.
Shocked at what I saw as hatred being flung in my general direction for no apparent reason, and being unable to reply, I posted a journal (don't bother looking, I just deleted it) where I vented about the situation. I even linked to his journal specifically, which I believe is against the rules here. I had missed the part about that being against the rules here, but that doesn't make what I did right.
So fast forward about 3 months. A seemingly ignorant insult that I thought I put behind me suddenly hit me right in the face when I saw his name pop up again. This morning, I found myself unable to enjoy some of the things I always enjoy. I don't understand why I couldn't just... get over it! As much a slap in the face as it seemed to be, It's not like we were friends before the incident. I'd never even spoke to him, until today.
This was eating away at me for some bizarre reason, and I HAD to at least attempt to seek closure, so I dug my FA account out of the grave and contacted him there. What I expected to get was a "Get over it, loser!" type of response from the type of person I thought he was, but although that wouldn't have made me feel any better, it would have at least reinforced my initial assessment that he wasn't worth my time.
What I got instead, however, was a completely reasonable and highly respectful response. We PMed back and forth for awhile, and I soon found out that those comments that hurt me were directed at someone quite more deserving of them. Eventually he told me the REAL reason why he blocked me, and although I still don't agree with why he did it, his reasons were at the very least 100% understandable.
In the end, he said that he felt better about not only me, but a little better about the IB community as a whole as well. I sought closure and got it, and more. That went so much better than I could have imagined. I may have made a fool of myself with that past journal, but at least it's completely resolved now.
6 years, 1 month ago
12 Mar 2013 06:46 CET