Well I haven't had many RP requests at all, I've been requesting more than requested. It just proves how unpopular I am, doesn't it? Either that or all these watchers are just here for the porn of me and Amber and that's it. I do feel lonely and I guess my Autism helps that feel worse... especially when I'm excluded from things, for no real valid reason. I try to help people, advise them, talk to them, or even just listen to them, RP'ing to me isn't just sex... its a story, each one of my RP's are a story. And it always saddens me when they end suddenly, with no real ending...
I've probably done about 75 RP's between here, SF and FA. Only about 5 of those had a proper ending... There are lots of open ends there. If you do want to RP, but can't, tell me anyway, If we're in a RP and you can't continue for whatever reason, tell me anyway, I'm understand people have lives, family emergencies, work commitments, bereavement, debt, and many more problems... that's life. I wont flip out, I wont force you to continue, I'll just say "Okay, thanks for telling me, hope to see you soon and good luck".
I'm not a monster... I'm not a troll... I'm just a lonely wolf without a furry family and without some-place I feel is home. Sure I have a mental problem, sure it affects my mood and my attitude, but I'm a nice person, my Autism is mild, it isn't really a problem at all, in real life. People don't notice it besides an odd quirk. Online, you say you have that and its either ignored, or googled and taken drastically out-of-proportion, For those few who do care, I thank you, but for those who just use me, or misjudge me, I say this. Please, drop whatever vendetta you have against me and talk to me, I understand your problems, so try to understand mine. Please, and thankyou.
5 years, 7 months ago
03 Mar 2013 12:46 CET