I had a more elderly 'Figure Drawing' professor several years ago. There’s something about the older fellows that seems more fluent and natural. It can be hell for students who watch as he draws these beautiful figures before our eyes and say things like “oh, it just comes natural.” or “put your heart into it, and it’ll show in the quality of your work.”
As students, we’re always asking for the secret or magic formula…assuming there is one. We obsess over measurements and anatomy, how do you draw a nose? How many heads tall should a human be? I still bang mine against the wall when my work isn’t turning out well, asking “why can’t I draw today?”
I can only assume this wiser man had already figured it out for himself, sharing the words that we may only understand after a lifetime. “Put your heart into it, and it’ll show in the quality of your work.”
It’s as if we are given the key to a keyhole we have yet to find.
I think about all these frustrating times when I could not create, and I recall being so uninspired. Perhaps what I was working on had little meaning to me, or I found myself preoccupied with other things in my life. My heart wasn't in the work I was doing, and it showed. When you're on a project, drawing somebody else's idea or somebody else's characters can wear you down after awhile.
So why do I always seem to be questioning the things I do? Why do I have to care? I've realized that it's the force behind any good drawing I've ever made. I’ve realized it is stimulating for me, and it keeps my heart firmly within my work so that I may never stray from my reasons for living. Art is my job, my career, my philosophy, my life. It is an endless journey of expression, the sharing of ideas, the telling of stories, and the creation of living characters. When I’m away from it for too long, I lose any life I have.
Now if only I could go back to my professor and see if I’m even remotely close to finding this key hole. But, strangely, I feel it’s not for him or anyone else to decide.
*End sappy reflection*
6 years, 5 months ago
20 Jan 2013 03:04 CET