Been dealing with a lot of problems lately. Recently found out that a skin issue I've been dealing with for over 5 years is actually Auto-Immune Hives that is being caused by my Ankylosing Spondilits. On top of that, it is also causing sever Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Add to all of this horrible financial issues (not to mention PayPal are jerks and closed my account unless I give them my SS# (yeah right)), other health problems, and things breaking down on both my car and my house, and you think it could only get better.
Well, my father was in the hospital for the entire weekend and had to take the ambulance back on tuesday as well. He ended up having an enlarged prostate to the extreme that he needed a catheter. Also, he had a mild stroke and is in the onset of dementia (it was to the point he didn't even know who I was anymore). He is doing better now (though still has the catheter within him) but it still hurts and scares me deeply. I've always pictured my dad as, well, like superman. He almost never got sick or even seemed to act his age. It always made me feel good to know he was my father. Now, I hear about this and it really scares the crap out of me. For one, it means his age is finally catching up to him and I have no clue how much longer he is going to be around. Secondly, it scares me that, if he ends up with Alzheimers, I probably will too. Not to mention, I don't think I could handle my father completely forgetting who I am. It would destroy me.
Anyways, I think I really need to get some sleep. All this stress just isn't good for me.
P.S. Don't really know why I am posting this. I don't have any watchers so no one will probably ever see this, or care.
7 years, 8 months ago
05 Mar 2011 12:55 CET