So as we're rapidly approaching the end of another year I thought I'd take the time to say a couple of banal things, for those of you interested in reading them. It's been another year of stress, of drawing, of being a part of this varied, supportive and generally wonderful fandom. I'd like to say that I am constantly grateful to fans of my work and those of you who support me financially by purchasing it, but as gratitude has its limits I confess that I'm not grateful all the time. Every time I have pause to reflect on how lucky I am to have such a niche here, however, gratitude and awe are precisely what I feel. Truthfully I don't know where I'd be without you lot.
Drawing, for me, is simultaneously a joy and a torture! A constant switching back and forth between shame and loathing for my own limitations and appreciation of those of you who, despite those limitations, appreciate my stuff. So, thank you for that and here's to another year of more-or-less the same, with hopefully some plodding improvements XP.
I've tried to learn a lot this year, poring over non-fiction and ever increasingly, every day, coming to appreciate literature and the written word more and more. There can be no greater gift one can give to humanity than the immense effort and passion of putting down ones hard work in print for others to benefit from. Whether it be the pleasure of fiction with its beautiful prose or the liberating, empowering source of knowledge that is non-fiction, books are something that I can no longer do without. Which reminds me, some time ago I did say I'd be going through furry fiction and rewarding its writers free art. I haven't forgotten about that, so I'll do my best to get that underway next year.
Aside from the entertainment this year has been one of the most difficult for me in terms of coping with anxiety and depression. These things have a way of having a cumulative effect and, without much at all by way of a break, I've felt it piling on top of me throughout 2012. To contradict that popular phrase "that which does not kill you makes you stronger" I'd like to assert that, for a great many harmful things, this isn't true at all. Despite this I'm prepared to put in considerable effort to be a stronger person. It's the stress that makes me anti-social. I don't want to talk to people online, I don't want to reply to comments, the whole affair daunts me and I avoid it as much as I can. This is something that does need to change, especially when it comes to interacting with you when you have the courtesy to leave a comment on my art. At any rate, I'm not declining to reply because I don't like you, but rather because I genuinely have nothing to say XP.
That's enough pointless rambling and crap, I think. Enjoy the New Year's Eve festivities and I hope 2013 has good things in store for you. See you soon!
5 years, 7 months ago
31 Dec 2012 15:28 CET