I'm more introverted than introspective, but I'll do my best.
Confession 1: Your biggest fear. Abandonment. Nothing scares me worse than the thought of my friends turning on me for something I fucked up without realizing.
Confession 2: Worst Nightmare. Dreaming about the above, actually.
Confession 3: Something you wish you could forget. Failing at basic training at the Marine Corps Recruiting Station in San Diego.
Confession 4: Best dream. I don't really remember dreams all that well. Most of mine are actually about mundane experiences I've never had. Like..waking up and making your bed in your own room. I haven't had a room of my own in fourteen years.
I guess the best dream I had was
Confession 5: Favorite memory. When I worked at Wal-Mart, I started out as a guy who stood in a semitrailer and tossed freight onto a conveyor. Fast as you can, for hours on end. Needless to say, given that they were loaded just as quickly, and that freight became...rearranged in transit, it was not stable.
My favorite memory is being buried alive in a freight avalanche and then being dug out without being seriously injured.
Confession 6: Worst experience. Working at a diner, slipping on a greasy patch on the floor because another fry cook backed infront of me and knowing I was going to bust my skull open on the tile floor. Only I caught myself and did not fall! Then I realized something was sizzling because my left arm was supporting my weight on the grill. The hot end.
I was cooking. Unpleasant. Don't recommend it. Slapped on some aloevera bandaged it with paper towels and finished my shift. Had blisters the size of golf-balls. Boss lady was nice enough to give me some silvadene and a real bandage. Guess she felt guilty because the fry cook I didn't run down/push out of the way when I fell was her mother.
Confession 7: Biggest pet peeve. People that can't read my mind! On a more serious note..uhmn..I guess it would be people that don't read rules/posts/etc then ask me about thing's I've already covered. It just seems like a waste of time to repeat myself, and considering that I've had enough close calls on the road and at work to feel like I'm already living on borrowed time..yeah.
Arrogant, I know.
Confession 8: Something you're paranoid about. Motives. I find myself always questioning someone's motivations for doing something...or -not- doing something. Even when I know they're my friend and wouldn't intentionally upset or hurt me.
Confession 9: What you thought of your current best friend when you met them. Best friends? I don't really do that. I have alot of 'friends' and 'people I'd kill for' Taking a bullet for someone? Don't even go there. That's easy. You can do that on accident. Consciously and willing taking a life for someone is a hard choice.
But...uh..seeing as most folks I know aren't on Inkbunny.
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/egodominustuus/ Other sister...she writes for money. She's damn good too, you should all go buy something. She's..not as nice as the other, but I got to help raise her, so that's explained well enough isn't it?
Confession 10: Your strongest principle/belief. Don't fuck with my friends. They're what's most precious to me, and fucking with them makes me angry. Making me angry leads to me wanting to do things that could lead to incarceration and saying things that upsets or embarrasses my friends. Upsetting my friends makes me angrier, because they are precious to me and I don't like seeing them upset.
Confession 11: What annoys you the most. People that keep trying to talk to me while I'm attempting to concentrate. If it's not an emergency.
Confession 12: Something you want to do before you die. Just...feel content. Find love? I'd say economic security, but I don't have love yet.
Confession 13: Biggest regret. Letting myself fail to achieve my dream of driving a tank.
Confession 14: Hidden talent. I'm not really a...'hiding' kind of person. I try to be upfront about capabilities. As for talents that aren't readily apparent..uhmn.
I have..a knack for creative applications of pre-existing concepts? I can take things and combine them in new ways.
Confession 15: Favorite thing about yourself. I'm..generous? I guess. Giving people things, or just time to make them feel better. I like making people happy, and I like that about me. Sort of reassures me that I'm not a sociopath.
Confession 16: One thing you would change about yourself if you could. I CAN change it and I'm working on it. My temper. I'm getting it under more control. I need to.
Confession 17: Worst habit. Zits freak me out. Purge the filth. Purge. Destroy. Excise the pustulence!!
Confession 18: Most important person in your life at the moment.
Confession 19: A skill you wish you had. I...something lucrative. I just wish I could make some real money and not always be dependent on someone.
Confession 20: Biggest compliment you've ever received. I don't know about big compliments. I tend to accept 'em. I do what I do because it was the best I could do. If you compliment me, thanks. If you compliment me and I didn't do my best, I suspect you may be trying to save my feelings or are not seeing the errors in what I did.
Confession 21: What you hate most about society. That ignorance is apparently something worth celebrating.
Confession 22: Something that makes you cry. ...Bolo novels. Don't ask me why a cybernetic tank...a robot, a made thing created by flawed humans can have a better understanding of honor and sacrifice than its own creators.
Something simultaneously hopeful and tragic in that story. That maybe humans will actually create a species more worthy than we are...but it would still be a victim of our flaws.
Confession 23: Something that makes you laugh. Good comedic timing..Nori has a point about that one. Other things..good quips, and maybe..I dunno, so much makes me laugh. Dark humor sometimes?
Confession 24: Most treasured possession. I suppose my computer. Not as a thing, but as a means of communicating with most of my friends.
Confession 25: Something no-one expected you to like. I dunno. Furries? I'm fairly humanocentric if my icon never gave that away.
Confession 26: Strangest hobby. Armchair psychology and rping. I'm a good listener and try to help out people with problems. I'm not as good at it as
Confession 27: Biggest ambition. Unrealistic: I wanna be rich and successful. Maybe a politician that actually delivers on promises and manages to integrate personal freedom with a decent social safety net... Semi-Realistic: I want to be successful, in that I finally improve myself enough to get a job with a decent wage and manage to get a relationship going. Realistic: I want to survive the next year.
Confession 28: Something stupid you used to believe in when you were younger. That being intelligent and doing well in school would be enough. Turns out, connections really do matter.
That my parents would be married until they died.
Confession 29: A random confession. I'm alot nicer than most people realize. I just don't like to let many people that close.
Confession 30: A few words to, honestly, describe yourself. Neurotic, Impulsive, Empathetic, Aggressive, Hypocritical