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OOOeyGoooey

A Thought.

So i lied back a few moments and suddenly thought about commishes and feeling overflow and letting people down and stuff

Why do i keep trying to take more then i can handle? because i dont really have a choice, or i choose to, if i stop at any given time, since my income from them isnt too great at all times, i cant help my parents make money and i feel i let others down

i thought to myself just now that maybe if i had a job i could actually choose to take less commishes so i dont bulk myself over what i thought i could do, or if i ever get as fast as
Aogami
Aogami
i could do both equally and awesomely, it would be nice but hm....

im just not sure, no im not thinking of stopping art, its just... where i am with commishes right now and forcing myself to do them, ... i just think im letting down my parents and my commishers by not doing them, but i bulk myself for the sake of my parents i guess....

TL:DR i guess is that if i get a job ill be able to take less commishes and feel like i let less people down, my brain functions by days, and i keep thinking every day that passes that i didnt get everything i had done im just keeping people one day more waiting

Sometimes i think im just too high-strung i guess? and Over-Critical in how i do arts, to a point i implode upon myself

Thats probably destructive behavior, and i should chill more but huh.....

Idk, just my mind on how i feel right now toward things X3;;


This is also kinda an apology to those ive kept waiting, Trades commishes and all, im really sorry forever. >:
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Added: 5 years, 10 months ago
 
Danjen
5 years, 10 months ago
Don't be a dummy and do like, 2 a week.

Even if you need more dosh, just do like 2.
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
thats the thing, again i CANT stop, i do not need the dosh, they need it. i CAN get alot done i just- kinda shutdown with one baddie piece and then i feel im letting down peeps, its kinda a vicious cycle i think >w<;

as said, once i get a REAL job ill be able to slow down and chill out prolly ovo...
IsaacEinfalt
5 years, 10 months ago
>: We can wait OOO. *hugs* I know how you feel, I have a list of stuff a mile long I need to do, and I force myself to do some every day. <3 Just stop taking new commissions, finish the ones you have, and find a job. Do arting on the side if you have to, but help your parents. <3
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
10 days left to be here before i get home... i hope i can do something with that amount of time, if not gosh i feel im just procrastinatin
Launny
5 years, 10 months ago
I understand you very very well....
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
<x3...
Shokuji
5 years, 10 months ago
Hope things work out for you, OOO. Take care. =)
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
thanks sho >w<
Rem
Rem
5 years, 10 months ago
Oh god, I know exactly how you feel. I only take 3 at a time, but I still feel bogged down since I'm so sloooooooow.

But, you can't rush art. Or, you shouldn't. That's a reason why I don't stream anymore. xD I'm too critical and end up spending HOURS on doing very little until I believe it looks right.
When you have so much piled up, it can feel stifling, but I'm sure your commissioners understand. =3
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
>w<;;;


by rush you mean quality? or the burnout feeling after doin it? XD if the rush, i dont usually rush, because rushing makes me find errors way easy. |# which is the prime EXAMPLE of my artrage at times, if rush by burnout, yeah i shouldnt but for helping my parents i cant help it if i really wanna help, id need like.... 4 commishes every week to help them, or more X'3 i help them, but i burn myself.... hrm. XD

yeah, i hope they do, i guess i let the day-by-day stress get to me >: by getting everything done by day i mean, and i dunno of people got this, like, every commish i got that day, DONE, if i cant then i feel its just another day im making people wait >: which abit contributes to my stress >w<

Rem
Rem
5 years, 10 months ago
Well, yeah, both. =p

Oh goodness... That's a loooot of pressure on yourself! It's really sweet of you to help your parents and I'm sure they really appreciate it, but don't drive yourself mad with all the pressure you put on yourself. Just try to breathe, relax and remember that nobody is pushing you to go faster. Have fun with the art process. =3

To finish something in one day.. I can only do that with sketches. But then again, my process is a bit convoluted since I want each person to be completely satisfied. I have them approve every single stage; sketch, lines, flats and then final. Takes a while, but I'm too obsessed with making people happy. xD So far, no complaints. My clients are always super duper nice and appreciate the hard work I do and I like what I crank out, s'all good. Like I already said, I'm sure yours think the same of you. =)
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
same here for that XD, i work realy fast, i can get things done if i try in 24 hour limits XD i guess i shouldnt be too crazy about getting ALL my work done in one day >w< as said... i can be too high strung and stuff XD
Shadow781
5 years, 10 months ago
don't stress yourself.
just take a deep breath and be calm.
you let no one down.
no one will care how long it takes.
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
sigh* i hope not.... i try my best, but i guess even i can only do so much...
Shadow781
5 years, 10 months ago
well I know if I asked you for a request I would not care how long it took to make.
just don't feel like you let anyone down, because you havent.
CrimsonKeaton
5 years, 10 months ago
I often feel the EXACT same way ;n; it'll fix itself though, tis just one of those things you can't really control. Worry not, everythin'll be alright in the future.
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
thanks >w< i hope so too..
VoidShark
5 years, 10 months ago
That's why I don't take commissions XDXD I always feel behind and I can't enjoy doing what I want to in such a case.

Also Aogami is leik..amazingly fast ._. ..............AMAZINGLY. Dey boggle my slow drawing mind |D
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
>w<;; i have no choice really, well i do but i wish to support my parents haha X3

yeah he is @w@ supah fast aoiiii
VoidShark
5 years, 10 months ago
Yeah I understand =.
buckleypuppy
5 years, 10 months ago
*pats your back* Don't compare yourself to what other people do/don't do. Those who seek you out for a commission want you to draw stuff... because they like what YOU do! It's that simple. Even when it takes time. I would say most people dont mind waiting... good things come to those who wait after all. I find with anything, even the things i love doing, taking a little break really helps renew your love for it. Until you get your muse back *sits with and puts an arm around you* hang in there! ^-^
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
i suppose so, yeah ;w; all i can really do is try, i cant do much past that
buckleypuppy
5 years, 10 months ago
thats the spirit! *nuzzles*
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
<3 *nuzzlie*
Xeri
5 years, 10 months ago
Sounds like someone is so hard on himself :F

Don't make your hobby to be your source of sorrow, guess that's not what your commissioners would want to be :3
They can wait a day or two, not that their life would depend on it or something.. ^-~
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
or three or four or five or six, orz, thats how it usually goes >:

but yeah i guess i feel abit more of a clam getting this off my chest |3;
Xeri
5 years, 10 months ago
Yeah, let the pressure go out :3

It helps especially when you have people who listen to you ^_^<3
OOOeyGoooey
5 years, 10 months ago
...it really does. xD
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