Well couch, but she is not good and she may not even live through the night. It's so amazing that Hospice care was set up for her before she got this bad. My Sister's Amber and Jasmine are there with her every moment now. They have been helping her with her care up until now, administering meds and such. Now they are with her watching every breath.
It came on so fast, but my dad took me to see her today. She was on the couch, unable to move, or speak, her breathing was labored. They Told me she could hear us though.
It was us 3 kids and her dear friend Tara, we talked and chatted. Jasmine is holding up well, but she is strong and needs to be there, Amber is a nervous wreck and is making things a bit harder for Jasmine to keep to my mom's wishes, but it's just how she is processing it.
I'm holding up ok, I cried a bit and talked to her a bit. Amber had me take some incense to burn for her and a picture of Sai Baba a guru she was very interested in the teachings of. I light some incense for her and set up the picture, she would want Sai Baba looking over me right now, though my beliefs don't hold him in any special light.
I'm not very upset right now, I feel I should be in some ways, but I know that pain and grief will not help. I will miss her, I love her. I only regret I was unable to spend more time with her during this life.
By the time you read this she may already be gone, but that's a good thing, she has suffered enough and it is her time to move on.
[edit: 2/23/2011] Jasmine called me this morning to let me know, she passed this morning peacefully. I'm doing ok, I'm just glad she is not suffering and she did not have to have her final moments drawn out.
8 years ago
23 Feb 2011 03:06 CET