is because i'm not social.
that i dont have friends.
tells me i need to go out more.
fact is i don't like poeple. i dont' trust them. she's lucky i trust her. lucky i love her. i've been fucked over so many goddamn times its hard for me to be with anyone.
and yet she would leave me because i'm somewhat a home-buddy or hermit.
i'm happy being at home, doing my own thing. i have an easy life. but she just nick picks at every lil flaw i have! and its getting to the FUCKING point where i just don't think i need her.
and my best friend? my only friend from Virgina is moving out of the USA in october.
just when i was falling for her. the ONLY person i truely trust and i just might loose her.
i cant post this shit on my other journals cus that woman, my GF would get pissed.
but i'm pissed. i'm fucking pissed knowing that all the affection and effort i put is only gonna be for NOTHING and why? because i dont go out, i dont have friends, i hate people. that i have a disability check and no job.
this is why i hate people.
and my girlfriend just might be one of them.
so FUCKING fed up with life.
6 years, 3 months ago
19 Sep 2012 00:12 CEST