Everyone can pretty easily identify their introduction into the fandom. What cartoon was their favorite, who who resonated the most with them or who introduced them to it.
But how about why you're still in the fandom?
Ever since the drama a few months ago around here, my appetite for the fandom's antics has cooled significantly. I'm not discounting my depression's effect on my ability to stay interested in anything, but furry...I dunno. I'm just not interested in it the same way as I was before. I don't peruse art or stories. I certainly don't write. I don't attend art streams or host my own gamestreams anymore.
It's more than just that. I'm losing interest in all my hobbies now. I spend a lot of time just staring at my computer screen doing nothing these days because I can't be bothered to turn on a console and play something. And it's been like this for a while.
inb4 "sounds like depression, bro." Yeah, it probably is. It could also be bipolar disorder, but given the skew in the ratio of good days to bad days very heavily toward bad days, with the ratio becoming more and more skewed weekly, it's pretty likely that it's depression. I can't afford therapy, and most GP's are leery about prescribing SSRI's to someone with suicidal ideation, since in the early stages of the meds that often takes away the demotivation to do anything without actually removing the bad feelings.
I guess I'm looking for reasons to stay around and be interested in the fandom. Maybe I can vicariously enjoy the fandom through others for a while until I'm back on my feet emotionally again.
6 years ago
17 Aug 2012 04:30 CEST