Last night for the first time ever we got a commission for myself that is all female. Some people may be confused a bit, but for the people who know me there is a lot more happening behind the scenes.
I don't want to tell my whole life story but I feel it's better if people understand, because I have requested that all of our pics from this day forward be straight male/female with me being the female of course.
All my life growing up. I always looked like a girl, and way to young for my age (not a bad thing). I found out after 5 years of constant migraines and having one of my eyes stop moving that I had a brain tumor. It's called a pituitary adenoma, due to this my body was not producing any hormones, I effectively never hit puberty. by this time I was 12 going on 21... I decided to correct the issue with my Dr by taking male hormones and testosterone for 4 years. After about 2 of those years I had met the most wonderful person in my life... Zander. I told him up front "Hey pal, I'm a babyfur, and I like dressing as a girl, quite often" although the truth I was trying to scare him away due to my last really bad relationships... and instead of rejecting me, this boy swept me off my feet. I had no idea how much I would fall in love with this person, devote my body and my soul to him. I was scared... I was taking the male hormones to see if maybe it would make me want to be a guy and that's what my mate wanted. After 2 years of happily being together he brings up a dream he had, where I had told him I wanted to be a girl and he was scared. At this point I was shocked, scared, and crying on the inside... I couldn't tell him now, but after a week I decided to tell him the truth. I have always wanted to be a girl, ever since I was about 11 I realized this. I told him and for that night we were on thin ice, I thought I was drowning... I had ruined the best relationship I have ever had. Instead, Zander surprised me yet again... he said we can go through this together... just slowly and step by step.
It has been over a year now, the Dr has switched me to female hormones, I don't need anything to block testosterone because my body still doesn't make it. I regret nothing and there is no going back for me. I will never be a boy again IRL, so this is a major step for both of us and I am proud my mate has commissioned my first female art, and I hope you all enjoy.
I've always enjoyed girly stuff growing up, for as much as I liked the boy shows like Knight Rider, G.I. Joe, He-Man etc. I still loved She-Ra, Rainbow Bright, My Little Pony, Jem, and Punky Brewster just as much. I once had a period where I tried to replicate the mix n' match converse (okay, mine weren't cons, they were knock-offs). I'm surprised my parents didn't realize my inevitable gayness much earlier, lulz. However, I enjoy having a penis... and my bf's vagoo-a-phobic and says if I ever got a sex change he'd leave me, lol lol lol (can't say I really fault him for it, I mean he is... we are gay after all). Your mate must be pretty dedicated to you to share a huge change like that with you.
I've always enjoyed girly stuff growing up, for as much as I liked the boy shows like Knight Rider,
It's been really hard on both of us, I wish it was all gum drops and rainbows, but transitioning can be a pain. Thanks and from what I hear you are doing good yourself too *snughugs*
It's been really hard on both of us, I wish it was all gum drops and rainbows, but transitioning can
Well enough, yeah. At least things with Abbey and I are going good. She should be starting her own transition soon; we're both looking forward to it. *snugs* :)
Well enough, yeah. At least things with Abbey and I are going good. She should be starting her own t
Having met and hung out with you and Zander, knowing what awesome people you both are irl, reading this was like taking a peek behind the scenes. When I met you about a year ago, I didn't know you were actually transitioning but you presented as female and so to me you were. I'm glad to know you're taking the steps to make your outside match what you know to be true inside and that you have someone by your side who supports that.
Having met and hung out with you and Zander, knowing what awesome people you both are irl, reading t
*hugs* thanks Cel, my cuddly little sock monkey. People don't understand how much effort it takes or what I have to go through just on a daily basis. When we met that was one hell of a cub party lol.
*hugs* thanks Cel, my cuddly little sock monkey. People don't understand how much effort it takes or
