my great grandma...

ok, this isnt something that ill usually do, be all somber.. but i feel like maybe some of you might actually care...

my great grandmother was 90 something years old. close to a hundred i think...

i got a call from my mom this morning that i had missed, so i called her back. she told me that yesterday she had passed away....

i was honestly silent for a minute... she was someone that i was extremely close to.
losing her.. is like loosing my grandmother again... someone i loved deeply and cared about that ill not see again..

my great grandmother, who i always called grandma (heh), was a great person. every time i went to visit here she would always be so happy. we would sit on the front porch when the sun was setting and look out over the lake, talking about my plans for the future or simply the day that was ending. it was always something i looked forward to.
she had the most amazing garden. it was bigger then the house, and filled with all kinds of fruit trees and amazing flowers. she even had a mulberry tree. we always tried to make make jelly out them, but never got to. we would always eat them all, heh... the tangerine tree almost always had fruit on it, and they were always sour. which meant i was constantly always eating them. i love sour stuff. there's a orange trr on the side of the house that looks like it was crossed with something, (we always thought a lemon), we called it ugly-fruit. ironically, its not actual ugly-fruit, but it didnt make it any less ugly lol. tasted great.
we used to watch all kinds of movies to. she had a massive collection of vhs movies, lots she even recorded herself. wed sit there in the small living room, her in her comfy rocking chair, me sprawled out on the couch, covered in blankets cuz id be the one cold during the summer XD

i honestly cant really express just how much im going to miss her though... she was one of my closest relatives... i was actually closer to her then my mother surprisingly...

i may not be very active for the next day or two, but when i am, dont expect my normal demeanor to change much. i cope with things by throwing them into my head and locking them away were i dont have to think about em... not that im non-careing... its just i dont like pain.. or loss...

hope everyone has a good day/week, and ill be back soon. thanks for reading....