whats wrong with me.. why can I do no right and nothing just.... just... stay okay........
something always goes wrong, and its always my fault....... I have cried so hard that I puked..... 3 times tonight... within the last.... hour and a half......
was already having a bad day.... bad few days........and.. and... now...... my mate....jerry.... he... I.. I think he hates me..... I... I keep fucking everything up.....
everything is my fucking fault... everything......
why...... am I.. just..... a bad person? Is this.... punishment...?
I have always been nice to people.... I try to be there for people that need me and help out people that are in need.......... I dont try in hopes of some reward.. I try because I know people just neeed someone once in a awhile that will not judge them and will listen with an open mind and open heart...... I have tried my best to be there for people..................
am I... am I being punished for being nice???
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sometimes I just want to fucking die....... you know?
gotta pull your shit together and hold you chin up sometimes....but.... I... I hate crying myself to sleep..... hate pushing forward, trying to be stronger than I am......I.... I need people... that... that are there for me and dont make me cry my brains out.... or doesnt induce a panic attack.....
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idk.... just venting........ ignore........
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