Hey all!
As the many of you have likely noticed, I've lumbered out from hibernation. A good deal of stuff has happened over the last few years, and I figure I'd be both good and healthy to go over a summary of it.
Let's crack that nutshell!
First of all, I did get a divorce after nearly 7 years of marriage. It was something mutually agreed upon, and likely a long time coming in advance. However, the year or two prior to this were a real emotional roller coaster, and that caused a massive drain on my will to draw, among other things. In the end, though, I am okay with this and have proceeded forward with my life. I also adopted a cat from my local animal shelter, and she's an absolute joy!
And then the pandemic hit!
I'm sure I don't need to go into details, since I imagine the most are you are familiar with this already! I was and am fortunate enough to work a job that is easily transitioned to a work-from-home setting, so the whole lock-down thing has had little impact on me directly. In fact, if anything, staying home with my cat has been great! The whole ordeal has brought to light something I already knew, but hadn't really quantified yet:
I am very much an introvert!
This doesn't mean I dislike talking with people or hanging out with others. Quite the opposite! As those of you who have met with me at conventions or watch my Twitch know, I feel very comfortable and enjoy talking with groups. Although it does get really exhausting for me. But it's all good - hell, my dad does hundred mile bike races for fun! It's exhausting for him too, but still enjoyable. In both cases, after a good set of exertion, one just needs a good length of rest. However...
One-on-one conversations are difficult for me!
But again, this isn't to say it's something I dislike, but it's the sort of thing that gets really overwhelming for me really easily. And when things get overwhelming, that drives my anxiety. And when my anxiety builds up, I just want to hide away. In the case of my participation on this site, my PM numbers were growing in size, and just logging into the site was starting to push me towards a panic!
This is in no way a scold or a disrespect to those who have sent me PMs!
I do appreciate being thought of on both an artistic and personal level, but it was getting a bit too much for me to mentally handle. That said, I'd like to keep private messages limited to close friends. Hopefully this doesn't come across as a sort of exclusivity thing - it's just that the thought of answering all those private messages makes me super duper tense. But again with my comfort in group talking, I still enjoy replying to each comment I get on pictures... at least for a little while after posting it!
Thank you all for reading this!
I look forward to drawing more cub nudes for you to enjoy~
I'm not sure when I'll be doing commissions again, but I'll announce it via journal if that happens. That's the best/only way to get in on them!
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27 Jun 2022 13:56 CEST
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