Eminem said it best
I am whatever you say I am.
This is fundamentally both true and untrue. You aren't normally what people say you are and most the time your about the furthest thing from that if people speak negatively about you.
If you say I'm something that's your truth of the matter.
Iv been pondering what to do with my art and how I should move on. I feel my name is tarnished.
But all tarnished can be king of their realm. Thanks FromSoft.
I'm tired of letting my old useless self-negative thoughts control my actions.
I know I'm not an asshole I just have opinions and I need to own up to that.
Wow. Its almost like I'm human an artist, a furry, a semi-lonely guy who just wants to actually fit some were.
I have a job now so I can just do art and be an artist free of (real or imaginary) restraint now.
I am still hurt by LynxBrush blocking me.
This hasn't gotten out of my head due to how instantly her actions changed my opinion of her as a person, an artist and a professional. I had many plan to possibly work out more art with her. I had plan so incorporate her character in a story I spent a lot of time on and cared about. It hurt me deeply to see my inspirations involving her go from 100 to 0. instantaneously and without fair reasoning as I never did anything directly to he but like her work.
Also doesn't hurt that she ignores, and blocks all my requests to be un-banned (2 attempts, 1 per year). Eh whatever. Your life, but I'm not gonna treat you like your not as asshole to me when you've done nothing but prove me right.
If you don't care about this well that's fine. This isn't a journal about that I'm merely stating my thoughts about that situation in current form as I'm mostly over that but others want me to forget it as if it never happened.
Well it did happen but fanboys of LynxB can only see her side. As If my side doesn't matter and all Iv done doesn't matter. I ask, why does all shes done matter to you more than all Iv done?
I'm also open for commission. however, I'm very time limited now so I will only accept 1 at a time now. I will be more choosy with what commissions I accept now to. I will likely take more time than I used to on it. It is likely to be more expensive as the cost of living is just forcing me to do so. Though I'll try to keep is as reasonable as I can. 30$ for sketches, and 200$ for 4k resolution full background images should give some idea of my range.
I'm coming back and keeping my name. Free from PAD and done being told what to do when all I want to do in reality is make friends and art. Starting tomorrow I'm gonna do some art streaming as often when I get home as I can. usually midnight EST.
For those who stuck threw this open-thought journal to the end I do have a question for you. Also Thanks.
What subject would you like to see me draw more? Example - Pokemon, Anthros, Canines, Ferals, OCs, Humans, DnD chars, Anthro Cubs, Elden Rings???? go crazy but be specific listing what you'd like to see. I'm trying to get a more broad feel for what my fans would like to see since TLK is starting to stale on me for a variety of reasons.
I'm not guaranteeing popular topics will be drawn right away as I do like to have an idea of the source before I draw them. But I will look into them.
2 months ago
25 Mar 2022 07:55 CET