G-God, I hate my brain. Really I do. I just had a nightmare, a REALLY bad and realistic nightmare.
It was sweet at first, me n' my mate were just being our herp-derpy selves and it got late, so... :blush: Things happened, woohoo~ However, the next morning (in my nightmare), I took my mate home... but when I'd come back, my mom was in a very apathetic mood, still looking somewhat cross. When I asked her if she was ok, she told me that during the middle of the night, we had woken her and she was furious with what I did, and she said she'd never forgive me. Literally, I stood there staring wide-eyed at her before yelling, "This had to be a joke, right? I mean, you're my mother! I've always been a bad apple, and you know this! For Christ's sake, I make mistakes all the time, you can't just NOT forgive me!! You can't do this to me!" So, I storm off to my room, being all angry but eventually I feel bad for getting so mad at her and I go to apologize. She still doesn't forgive me. So, I try doing everything I can to make her forgive and love me again... but she still doesn't. So... I get extremely upset with myself that I... I... I killed myself.
I instantly woke up right after that moment, wide-eyed. I looked up at my alarm clock, checking the time. Immediately, I started crying... (I'm still a little teary-eyed as I type this). I walked out of my room, to find my mother in the kitchen, just about to leave for work. When she saw that I was crying, she ran to me, asking what was wrong and if I was ok. I told her what happened, and instantly she threw her arms around me, holding me tightly.
Did I ever tell you... I love my mom?
6 years, 3 months ago
28 Jun 2012 14:40 CEST