Well I have fully recovered from COVID.
My mother and grandfather both did not however, I lost them.
I’m not sure honestly how I’m doing right now, to lose two people so close to me they both raised me for past 25 years. I’m feeling so empty right now and lost even the only people left in my family are my brother and grandmother and nephew. My grandmother was worried I might try to kill myself. I guess my mother told her of my suicidal episodes when I was younger, I was a different person then I don’t see myself doing anything like that least I hope not. I’m gonna try to push on but I feel different I don’t think I’ll ever be the same again. Happiness was hard before a rare fleeting thing, it feels almost impossible right now at least.
I did want to thank you all for your comments of support from my previous journal I really appreciated them it meant a lot, I loved reading them it felt nice, I’m sorry I didn’t reply I was still very sick then.
But anyway I just wanted to update you all on what’s been going on.
I really wish things had turned out different, I never imagined things would go this way or get this bad.
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25 Oct 2021 10:20 CEST
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