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Just what the hell is going on with me?

For the life of me I understand. How is it that I've had to live my entire life damn near invisible? That I'm always depended on to do so much but at the same time it's appreciated by nobody? I don't get it

I know it has to be me. There's no way in hell I just happen to coincidentally keep coming across people that are willing to use me and toss me aside. The face that is family, friends, supervisors and anybody else. So I have some hidden passive that just renders what I do unseen? Or is there a sign on my back that I can't feel? It's just so common and so often that I cannot think it's anything but that is stemmed from me somehow. I dunno I'm just ranting.

I'm short staffed at work. I'm falling behind in school because I'm doing 3x more at with and live way further away. I want to take a half day today and my boss's immediate reaction is to question if I've even done anything and then demand I list out all that I've done, with the very explicit implication that I've done nothing. I'm literally suffering burnout because of this job and he has the nerve to question me like that.

It's really hard living life unappreciated and ignored, but what am I gonna do?

Fuck...

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StarTheShinx

2 years, 6 months ago

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I'd consider a new job of a similar profession elsewhere

MaverickSkye

2 years, 6 months ago

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@ StarTheShinx

If it wasn't for the face that all of us need jobs right now since we just moved, I would've a while ago.

Smolfoks

2 years, 6 months ago

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This is a very simplified answer, but its the best answer for situations like this; make changes in your life to distance yourself from problematic people/places. If you ever need someone to talk to, hmu on tellygram uwu

MaverickSkye

2 years, 6 months ago

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@ Smolfoks

Yeah, I'm definitely working on that. Initially, I was going to come home to actually do homework but I can't even focus so I'm using this extra time, energy, and adrenaline to throw down on applications. I've had enough a while ago, but this was a breaking point for me.

SMATTS

2 years, 6 months ago

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I know what you mean. I feel like that at my job . Crazy time to be alive.

MaverickSkye

2 years, 6 months ago

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@ SMATTS

Aaaain't worth it. Just like myself, I would look elsewhere. Sticking around is going ot beat you down into acceptance and there is no point in that, it just advantages them and not yourself.

Whatzittooya57

2 years, 6 months ago

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Welp...welcome to adulthood

MaverickSkye

2 years, 6 months ago

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@ Whatzittooya57

I mean that would be relevant - if it kinda hasn't been my life from the start. Also, y'know, sitting back and taking it is a sign of a weak adult. I'm actually working on changing it. Accepting that as 'adulthood' is actually really depressing since, one shouldn't just let themselves be walked on like that. If a person has pride in themselves, they should be working to better that instead of just taking it.

So yeah it's adulthood, in the same way that letting yourself get spit on and not moving would be adulthood. Nah, screw that.

Smolfoks

2 years, 6 months ago

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@ MaverickSkye

Ye, never accept such defeatist mindsets. It's the fastest way to build yourself a prison

Whatzittooya57

2 years, 6 months ago

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@ MaverickSkye

Simply just cause we all got so much bullshit going on, stuck in same bubbles and what not there's only so much answers there is to give. Not saying to give up or just sit on your ass either.

ZwolfJareAlt306

2 years, 6 months ago

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*Hugs*

Also, don’t know if you’re into any of this stuff, but search “positive thinking“, and “law of attraction“.

They can teach you to make small changes in your life that will add up.

SpookyGirl

2 years, 6 months ago

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Someone once made a post. "Givers, learn your limits. Because takers have none." It's very true, and something I wish I had been told a long time ago. Seems like this is what's happening to you. You give far more than others would (which is incredibly admirable!) and those around you see that and want to take advantage of that spirit.

Keep strong Mavi. You're appreciated more than you know. I just wish the assholes treating you poorly could see just how much you do for them.

MaverickSkye

2 years, 6 months ago

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@ SpookyGirl

Thanks. And I know some of it is my fault. But a lot of my life ends up being born of desperate situations and people really love taking advantage of that. That's definitely the case here and I think I've had enough. Believe me I can make spreadsheets on how much I can't stand my boss. But he just kinda made the biggest no-no and hit me in my pride and that was kinda a breaking point for me. I know I should've always been on the look for a new place but with the constant chaos I've been too tired. At least this anger is giving me the fuel to get it done.

But yeah since this has been some sort of constant since like, age 12...I think I ned to go to therapy just so I can figure out a way to get rid of this icky feeling.

SpookyGirl

2 years, 6 months ago

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@ MaverickSkye

Therapy can definitely help. Just having someone there to listen and throw ideas to is amazing. May even learn more about yourself!

Take things a step at a time. Big changes can't be rushed, but it is good to have that ambition to do it. You got this. I believe in you.

Also to hell with that boss. I had a similar boss when I was starting out and they can crush your soul. Hope they get back what they've given someday.

AAS

2 years, 6 months ago

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Edited 2 years, 6 months ago by Owner

I passed a similar situation in past years, and know how you feel, is really hard, hugs
But I think is only thing of patience sometimes we overwhelm ourselves with things that not should do
You have 2 things there:

If you feel you are not feeling good in that work now and you have the sufficient experience to go and find another I think you are loosing your talent and energy there, sometimes is better to fine new winds, only try to find the new work witout came ot from your actual work, if I learned something in my actual work is that when the boss see that you are in post to go normally then start to consider you a little more

The other option is simple try to relax, when you can try to get out of all and take a day or 2 or more if can to you, only to you without friends without internet, without family, only you, eat what you want, see some movies or play a game, something that you really enjoy or if can expend it, go for a little trip to some pacific place, that helps because in that cases only is thing of over stress, is only kind of patience thing, things will going better soon, only need to take care of yourself for a couple of days and you will feel better soon

You sure are appreciated Im really sure, you only need to relax and see things from a different perspective

Bunnypaint

2 years, 6 months ago

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Don't let that put you in a bad mood. Those kind of supervisor are usually just afraid of ''competition'' for their position so they feel the need to push everyone down as much as they can. He question you just so you doubt yourself. If he truly believed your not doing anything, he would have gave you the whole day off without even bothering. He knew damn well all the work your doing. Don't let those kind of asshole mess with your brain.

KevinSnowpaw

2 years, 6 months ago

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a lot of us are feeling this pressure especialy now with all the staffing shortages in damn near every industry...

Your not just a employee at this point your basically a warrior.

this world will try to grind you down.

Dont fucking let it!

your stronger, we both are, because we have to be. TOugh it out for now it will either improve or you can bide your time untill you can make a move to improve your lot.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K70nC0FbxiU

FrostedChase

2 years, 6 months ago

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I'm really sorry you're feeling that kind of way, I'm sure it's a hell of a biting feeling. You're a really good person and you deserve a lot better than to live through abuse like that. I hope that better changes come around sooner than later for you, I honestly wish there was a little more I could offer than say some encouraging words.

TwoTails

2 years, 6 months ago

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Ditto on the not appreciated IRL
I get the "what the hell did you ever do for us?" BS line too much, from ingrates I wasted too much of my life helping (repairs, helping out in disasters & emergencies, doing their errands while incapacitated, etc)

It's society - they stopped teaching the importance of empathy, responsibility, politeness, consideration and such.
Priority is companies making people SPEND SPEND SPEND at any cost and keep them so pissed off & distracted they can't realize squat.

I dunno, are any of those contiguous day recording devices or apps or whatever affordable now?
I do know it's frustrating to not have the ability to instantly prove these ingrates wrong (explaining or reminding with paper logs/receipts doesn't have enough impact).

A certain amount of assertiveness is probably needed but in careful doses - is a fine line between people sensing they 'shouldn't go there' on dissing/using, & making someone snap.

Samuelblack7horn

2 years, 6 months ago

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*Hugs the cutie tightly*

LucidDreamdancer

2 years, 6 months ago

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That's pretty much when you tell them everything you do. And if they still don't get the picture. Leave. Then sit there and let them beg you to come back but don't let them win you. Because you work hard and are very much a team player. But sometimes being too reliable makes them take advantage of you.

Halo

2 years, 6 months ago

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On the job thing, I don't know how it works there but here a boss isn't even allowed to ask what you go home sick for. Or why you want time off, your free days are yours and being burnt out falls under sickleave just tell them it's sick leave and he should not ask more.

On the betrayed feeling, I'm really sorry to hear that. I've not chatted with you in ages and we're not close I think but you have always been a nice guy from all accounts and you deserve better. You can pull through and get your education done and then just leave all this shit behind and draw your own plans.

If you need to chat I'm still here in the same place ^^
Good luck and just screw them all *offers hugs*

TheTatteredKitty

2 years, 6 months ago

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As Homecare Pwovider. I's Feels Da Shames Ways Big Bwudder. Buh I's Juss Keeps Wemindings Ma Shelfs Ofs Da Quote Fwums Legend Of Zelda: Windwaker. "A hero is somebody who gives everything, and ask for nothing in return." Dats Includes Monetary Gains And Accolades.

*Hugs*
Buh We's Knows Ya Heres Big Bwudder.

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