So my sister got in a car accident last Thursday at the capitol city. She was driving and thought the light was green, pulled out, and got T-boned. They rushed her to the hospital, and no one was critically injured (including the other party). However, when they were checking my sister for injuries, they did an MRI and discovered a sizable mass. She would have been released from the hospital already, if it was not for this mass. Put her in ICU after doing the biopsy as a seizure could kill her.
Results have returned from the biopsy and its GBM Cancer, specifically Glioblastoma. I knew of such things, and the moment I heard it was a brain tumor, I knew it was a death sentence. This is the most aggressive form of brain cancer, and aggressive meaning it grows very fast, spreads fast, and is able to have it's own blood supply. It's very problematic, as you can continue to remove the tumors, but if you dont remove every single fiber on a microscopic scale, the tumor will grow back very quickly. It has the ability to invade the brain, and it is very difficult to work on and pill medication doesnt work due to the blood brain barrier.
In short, my sister is going to die.
Of my two sisters, I was closer to her as the eldest sister is a life destroyer herself and so selfish she will ruin someone else for her own pleasure (shes actually celebrating her little sister is dying and bragging about it actually). Though this sister, had a rough adult life, she married a mafia wanna-be that got her into hard drugs. She had two kids, and they had to grow up in that environment with a father like they have. He is an abusive POS, and by all means should be in prison, especially after the well documented attempted murder (he took a steel bat and beat a man's skull in, but the man survived), but he is free as a bird, for one very specific reason: he's the biggest rat. So police cut him deals every time he's arrested for dealing drugs, guns, even this attempted murder, he rats out everyone. He has FBI vans outside of his place, and well, still completely free because he is a rat.
I mention him because of the two parents, my sister is the better more loving as she cares for her kids, and doesnt use them. The sad thing is, once she does pass, her youngest daughter, whom is in her mid teens, will still be subject to his custody, and though she moved out into the state capitol (my sister was trying to get a divorce), he could just make a phone call and she would legally have to return to him into a bad life. She's doing great away from him though, doing well in school, has a job, a boyfriend, and is very happy, in contrast with her older sister, whom choose to stay with their father, and sadly she is going down his path by dealing drugs to high school kids thinking she'll make it big in life like that.
Despite my sister's drug addiction and even her having MS, she did do a lot of struggling for her kids, and it pains me to know that all they will have left is their very poor excuse of a father, whom I cannot even mention other things he has done online. That is where I feel the most sadness, for my nieces whom now have to live with the reality such a cancer can bring.
Personally, I've had issues with my family, my sisters included, some dark issues of things they have done to me in the past. Though I don't feel anything for my sister herself, I don't believe she deserves to die, but then again, many are dealt with things they do not deserve, so it is a poor means of measurement. Despite the history we have had, my concern is for her kids whom she loves and they love her back, and that is difficult to watch considering the lives they have had with their father the way he is.
A strange twist of fate that she may have never known about this cancer without this car accident. I mentioned she has MS, so she gets headaches often, and easily missed warning signs of the Glioblastoma tumor. It took a car accident and a routine MRI scan resulting from that to find it. All I know, is it's sizeable, and they have assembled a medical team to determine what to do. They will either operate to remove all of, or half the tumor and use chemotherapy to try to retard the microsopic pieces, or just do chemotherapy to retard the entire tumor, depending on how extensive it is.
There is no estimated time of death, though with this kind of tumor, it's usually about a year, within a year, unless she is lucky, then two years, or extremely lucky, five years. It continues to grow back, but I have been looking for alternative treatments, some of which prolong her life, but one sounds promising in another state at one specific hospital that shows good results.
Naturally the problem is money, and I'm not posting a journal to ask for money (however, I may start a gofundme on her cause depending on what the doctors do or say). If I were rich, I could at least take her to this treatment center in Texas to help her fight it and possibly remove it for good. Unfortunately she does not have much friends or support due to her drug habits (she turned into a well know thief and stole from many).
I don't even have money to go visit her in the hospital as its a good 200 miles away and I lack a vehicle and place to stay. Though I am trying to explore other options for her.
This type of cancer though, spreads itself with spider-web like tentacles around the brain, and grows very fast. In college anatomy years back, learned of a man who had the tumor removed, then it grew back just as big when they did his check up to see if he was ready for chemo, and they had to remove it again, and it grew back once more very quickly.
One thing is, if anyone has a brain tumor, its basically a death sentence because chances are, its this one. To remove it, you need to go on a microscopic level and get every single little cell removed and destroyed, and that is incredibly difficult to do in the brain. Every time I have seen journals of artists posting about a brain tumor that was found, it always sinks my heart knowing this knowledge, then seeing journals of them having the tumor removed, only to see journals of them coming back. Now I find myself affected personally by such a cancer in my sister.
I try to think of her, how she used to be before she got married. Very hilarious, creative story teller, fantastic piano player as she was self taught, and crazy smart at math, with a yearning to move and live in Alaska. After marriage, she turned into a thief, his version of a perfect wife, no more piano playing, but playing guitar as he liked guitar, and not very good. Completely different personality. But she had kids, and she at the very least gave them her love as a good mother could, despite her despicable husband. Even as she was in ICU, she was asking people she knew to try and sneak in street drugs her addiction became so powerful, and it's all from him, he started it all as hes hooked on hard drugs too. Hes a thief himself, stealing money from his own children, breaking into houses, and stealing my sisters life as she always blamed the stress he gave her the reason why she developed MS.
But with all that, it is difficult to remember how she used to be, on the positives considering the negatives she has caused me in my childhood. That's a different story, but I do try as she used to be rather delightful. And now she lays in a hospital bed, the car accident aggravating her MS so she seems a stroke victim, half her face numb, unable to speak as its slurred, her left arm completely numb, and now with the news that she will never live long enough to see her grandchildren in the future.
Sharing this as I may be a bit moody, for obvious reasons. I cannot go and visit her as Im poor and lack a vehicle, so kinda have to play it by ear with the knowledge that her time is very limited, and perhaps two years from this day, she may be already dead.
