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Whippy

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I sorry for lying to people, I'm even more sorry for lying to myself. I don't know what the fuck I am, but good at making myself and others confused and miserable. I probably don't even have a sexuality. I used to think i was into guys but I'm just not. I wish I was because nearly 100% of the people I deal with are guys, at least in this fandom. I guess girls figure out better things to do, such as not giving too much into a fantasy. Sadly, I have. Thinking about burning a few silly things I own, such as stuffed animals. Yeah, I hate my life as it is currently. But I guess I hate myself more for letting it get this bad in the first place. I'd like to change it. I guess my first task is to get rid of everything that would drive a normal person away, or just leave this fucking cursed place. Eh, either way, I'd like to have a future. That may not include me being a furry artist, I'm not even sure yet.  
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Added: 6 years, 2 months ago
 
SenGrisane
6 years, 2 months ago
Yes. Girls are rare, but not unheard of.
And plushies are not that uncommon anymore. I bet many girls would like them. Unless you refer to other things that could drive people away.

Whatever you do, don't destroy things permanently. You can always put them away. But if you destroy them, they are lost forever. Or at least if you really need to rid of them donate them to a foster home or similar institution.

You could draw more female characters, but I dunno if that would help you.
ScottyKat
6 years, 2 months ago
*hugs all over you* i hope your ok looq
Whippy
6 years, 2 months ago
I feel like I may not have a future. So..I'm not sure...
Chaosfox
6 years, 2 months ago
I don't really understand what you are talking about.

Mind explaining a bit more?

All I kinda see in that wall of text is someone who is depressed/angry, but I cant understand what's going on to give you any advice.
Whippy
6 years, 2 months ago
" I don't really understand what you are talking about.

That's because you don't know me very well. I don't really care to explain too much here atm. I need a therapist, but I'm too poor.
Chaosfox
6 years, 2 months ago
Spilling your heart out in public is never a good thing to do, but talking to your friends is something I would consider.

I'm not a friend of yours, but I'm not so heartless to see someone really stressed out and not offer any help. Sometimes with all the drama of the furry community, people just need someone to talk through their problems.

Hope you feel better soon, whatever has you down.
ScottyKat
6 years, 2 months ago
im on skype if you wanna talk hun
Carrot
6 years, 2 months ago
Dude - do what you enjoy man. If you aren't into boys, fuck it. If you aren't into girls, fuck them. You don't need to be with anyone - I honestly don't find it worth the time or investment.

If you like stuffed animals, cute shit, than by all means, go for it. SURROUND YOURSELF WITH THE STUFF MAN. We're in a consumer culture, we seriously identify ourselves with what we have and what we do. You'll be lying to yourself if you're trying to "impress others" by changing yourself - and where's the fun in that?

If you're "driving normal people away" - then fuck them. I guarantee their lives are boring and dull, or at least too ignorant to show their uniqueness. That's the cool thing about artists. We put OURSELVES out on a canvas, and hope the world will give us love and praise. We aren't afraid to be ourselves - in fact our art is so much better when we're actually present in it.

Don't let people discourage you doing what you like, man. One - there's no reason anyone should dislike you for what you like. That's fucking retarded. Our world is simple - we create, and we consume. That's about it. So why should some things be hated? OR BETTER YET - why should some people be hated for what they like? There's nothing wrong with liking cute stuff (My room is literally filled with the shit. My sketchbooks, my illustrations.) It was some IGNORANT PERSON who decided that "cute stuff" is for kids, or weirdo adults. And it's merely MORE RETARDED IGNORANT PEOPLE who follow that hegemony.

I honestly believe a large portion of the world is retarded and too influenced to make their own decisions - so why bother with them? Life is short, and people are retarded. So fuck all and live for yourself, and live for those who support you. Luckily, the internet has done a wonderful job at unifying us "freaks" (LOL HEGEMONY). As far as I'm concerned, those who are too close-minded to get over the fact that we're in the 21st century, and "normality" is a thing of the past (AND A BORING ONE AT THAT) - than fuck um.

I dunno man. I get flustered with this topic. Just do what makes you happy - no point in doing things that suck.
JeffyCottonbun
6 years, 2 months ago
A man does not simply throw away the work he's done over the years, the memories and so on.
You'll feel better once you take a well deserved vacation or even move somewhere else. Prolongued lack of human contact feels lonely and depressing. I actually feel you here.
" Looq wrote:
I guess my first task is to get rid of everything that would drive a normal person away

Drive a normal person away... you're pretty normal. Of course, what the hell is normal anyway ? It's just a standard of rules one should follow to live a boring and sometimes meaningless life.
You hate your life as it is... well, find out what can boost it up and start living it the way you want and add some improvements.
Funny how in 10 years from now you'll be alive and kicking. People who think too much about the future end up forgetting about the present.
I'm always here for you. *hugs*
Whippy
6 years, 2 months ago
" You'll feel better once you take a well deserved vacation or even move somewhere else.

I can't, I'm too broke atm. If I do leave, I'll have to live pretty much "hand to mouth" with comishes every day. I've thought about doing that, even though it's risky and scarey.

I know...normal is rather boring. Unfortunately normal people can without companionship and friendship for silly reasons. But I guess in that case it's not really friendship at all.  I just wish I was physically around real people that gave a damn about something.

Thank you for being 'here' though, it's good to have someone like to you talk to.
renerechie79
6 years, 2 months ago
hi there i have msn if you wanna talk i felt bad about my life at some point i almost made a very wrost mistake one that i would naver have been able to live though if you wanna chat let me know ok
DaddyDuckyBE
6 years, 2 months ago
In any case, don't burn anything that you may regret later buckling.
tannim
6 years, 2 months ago
selling them is better than burning them, even if it's just for the price of shipping.  I have no useful commentary on the rest other than like what you like and do what you need to like it.
mousehwolf
6 years, 2 months ago
*hugs* Hope you can figure it out man. :(
MrSOCKS
6 years, 2 months ago
This has been coming for a while. A nuclear reinvention does seem in order. Didn't I myself, have to go through the same thing? And this kind of thing seems to be hitting the fandom rather hard this June.
But!
Don't burn the shit you don't want anymore. There are plenty of other people who might use them for their own good. Donate wherever you can.
I'll wait patiently for further updates.
elix
6 years, 2 months ago
*HUG*
DarkFang666
6 years, 2 months ago
I will be honest, we don't know each other, but you seem very nice and you seem like someone who shouldn't be going through this. I tell everyone this same fact though. The best thing in life is to be yourself, and as much as someone can think or say "but I don't know myself, I don't know what I want or need" that is untrue. Everyone knows, they just need to think long and hard. look deep down inside themselves. Something will reach you, I'm sure of it and you just need to take it and ride with it. And as for changing and getting rid of stuff, don't. I thought about that, and I am bi with a male preference and my parents would kill me if they knew. but my irl purely straight friend stopped me and I have never been happier that he did. Atleast savor the things that are important and if you don't know what those are, they are the things you have always cherished the the day they came into your possession. I hope that i can be of some help and if you need to talk, just ask and I can give you my username to whatever IM you use most or we can just talk on here, please don't be afraid to ask if you feel you want to. I wish you the best of luck *hugs tightly and pats your back*
CLCoon
6 years, 2 months ago
no one ever said you shouldnt like both >.>
FlyingFox
6 years, 2 months ago
why are you unhappy with being a furry artist? If its because it makes "normal" people look at you weird then I think you should continue. No seriously. When new people figure out what I do in my sparetime they also think "wtf" and thats the time when I give them the finger and tell them to accept me or gtfo.
MichaelJBear
6 years, 2 months ago
*Hug you tightly* I wish that I could be at your side to recomfort you or help you to see what to do, give you some idea... Dont burn your plushie Looq... You'll regret it... I know... and by the way Carrot, JeffyBunny has given a lot sof good advice... better than I could... Just take the time to think about it Looq... Time helps a lot to heal wounds that come from our emotional lives in turmoil... *hug titghtly*
MystBunny
6 years, 2 months ago
Driving normal people away? There's one very important thing you gotta remember: If something as simple as a plushie is going to drive a person away, that person isn't worth keeping around. If it's normal to judge someone over something that petty, then normal is the last thing you need. Changing who you are in order to socialize more with "normal" people is not a good idea, trust me on that, you'll be even more miserable. Besides, I think you'll find most people a bit more accepting than you realize. The assholes are simply the loudest. Changing who you are to seek out a relationship is an even worse idea. There's no point or benefit in a relationship with someone who likes a fake you. Don't hide yourself. Think of how unbearable the world would be if everyone tried to be "normal" all the time.
kenji321
6 years, 2 months ago
Don't burn anything or throw anything away.
You may regret it and that will just cause more trouble then good.

As for the future you're seeking.
It's there.  You may not be a furry pron artist in it, but you can definitely be a furry toon artist.
When you do run across someone you want to form a relationship with.
Make sure that a some point (probably later on in the relationship) that you don't hide that you use to do furry pronz.
But.... yeah if you need to talk, there are alot of peeps willing to lend there eyes and ears to read/hear what you have to say.
DannyDenim
6 years, 2 months ago
I'm not gonna go overboard with my comment, all I'm gonna say is that you can totally have the best of both worlds.  Meaning, whether you figure you're into boys, girls, both, niether, whatever, you should never try to change who you are..Sure, you can change your situations, but you are always going to be you, whether you like it or not...and since you're always going to be you, you need to learn to embrace that, because once you do, you won't really give a shit about issues like this.  Before you can be happy with anyone else, or anything else, you need to learn to be happy with yourself.
You also shouldn't burn your stuffed animals or anything like that, because you have them for a reason.  I actually sleep with a Tails Plushie everynight, AND I have a girlfriend who lives with me..yeah she complains sometimes that I don't cuddle her at night because I cuddle with Tails, but all in all she excepts who i am, and if she didn't, she could sleep on the floor or better yet pack her shit, because as much as I love her, I'm not changing who I am because I'm happy WITH who I am.
Relationships can wait man, let your priority be you and you only.  TRUUUUUUST me I know the feeling, so it's not like you're trying to reach out to a brick wall here, and I'm sure a lot of people on here either have been or currently are in the same boat as you...but being someone who was, I'm here to assure you that it DOES change.  I spent years thinking nothing would ever change, but it did once I made an effort to get my shit together.  Sometimes opprotunity and happiness isn't going to show up at your door, sometimes you have to get out there and make it happen.  I'll never forget feelign so miserable that it actually made me get out and do the things I wanted to do, because I didn't give a shit about my life and what would happen to me if something went wrong, and things DID go wrong XD  But they got better.  One door closes, another door opens, thats how life works, so don't ever feel like you're stuck, because theres always a way out of things.
Don't ever change who you are. ^_^
DannyDenim
6 years, 2 months ago
btw, I totally went overboard with my comment XD
alvidore
6 years, 2 months ago
hey chin up Mr!....I known you for a very good long while....and one thing i learned from you is, well f@#k labels. You dont need to be gay or straight, or whatever. You just need to be you. I know i aint much of a furry as other people are on here. I know i aint great at chatting online (snore fest, no offense). But even with all that, i know one thing. You are one of the greatest friends i have and have known, and im sure a lot of guys on here feel the same way. I love ya dude and i know u know that........

P.S......I SWEAR IF YOU BURN MY DOUG STUFF ANIMAL I GOT YOU, I WILL FIND YOU, AND I WILL TIE YOU DOWN TO YOUR MATTRESS AND BREAK YOUR ANKLES JUST LIKE KATHY BATES DID IN "MISERY" !!!.....LOVE YA!
LeafMumfuzz
6 years, 2 months ago
iunno, just dont do anything rash and without thinking, it leads to regret. we all have downs in our lives, this may just be one of yours.
flatjack
6 years, 2 months ago
i am going trough the same thing myself. but i looked at in a lot sharper way and i really have bin thinking about this for a long time... when it come to sexuality, it don't Mather if its girl ore boys, but who the person is (personality)
and changing things in your life can be really hard, almost impossible. so i tog a side road to this, and so i change myself first.
think about who you are, the find out who you want to be...

for me i get panic attacks from fear of being around people i don't know.
the only way to get rid of this fear if self confides and the feeling of being Les of a target.
so i started studding martial arts, and working out to look good.

whit the results i got so far, i have bin doing stuff i newer had don before
its going forward and its getting better.


hope i could inspire you a bit, to get on from the point you are at right now :)
furloverguy84
6 years, 2 months ago
We all have moments like this where we don't know where to go, or wish to improve ourselves a lot more. I'm sure there are plenty of girls who are into the furry fandom, so don't give up hope of that. Maybe after some time you'll know what to do, but hopefully that won't involve you wrecking your own life and perhaps doing something that you might later regret. 'hug'.
Ophire
6 years, 2 months ago
Awww dude. We all love your stuff because we think it's part of you and what your into. If it isn't then you should do what makes you feel good for doing. Sure we'll be a bit sad if you change or leave, but we would still want you to be happy and feel all the worse from keeping you from that. Even those that watch you and can't admit it want to support you however you need if it's really as bad as your feeling. Let me know if you need to talk. If that's something you want of course.
bbmbbf
6 years, 2 months ago
:( * hug *
ShawnTails
6 years, 2 months ago
You know even tough your not into guys doesn t mean you can t live with one. Sure there won t be any fappity fap but hey, atleast living with a buddy that s fine with who you are is bether no?
Whippy
6 years ago
Living with anybody I could be myself around would be a ton of weight off my shoulders ^////^ I'm not totally put off by guys at all. Just the romantic part tends to really rain on my sunny day...ehh..
Razrien
6 years, 2 months ago
You're a rabbit.  

We're all a little fucked up in the head.

You sorta get used to if after a while.
Whippy
6 years ago
Yeah...something like that :P
Hammytoy
6 years, 2 months ago
Its dangerous to try to attract "normal people" because they are terribly boring :) Seriously though I wish I could help, hate seeing you upset like this but Im pretty useless in these situations
Whippy
6 years ago
You're so right about that. They really are. I don't think you're useless *hugs* You're a very nice and cool guy to talk to in my opinion.  I'm still around on skype also if you use that.
Hammytoy
6 years ago
nah I dont skype, i feel nervous around microphones, but im still on MSN :)
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