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IndigoFactory

Final Journal of 2010

This has been the most productive year for me in the furry community ever, I was really under the radar until recently and mainly it's just because people were telling me to stop holding in my thoughts and speak on them...both irl and online.

I've been around for close to 8 or 9 years here and suffice to say my reputation as a troll/asshole/douchebag/egomaniac is probably well deserved. But I see why so many people don't care about the opinions of furries. In all reality the ones who are the jerks, the outcasts, the...ugh "popufurs" and the "attention whores" that people actually kiss ass to are the ones who are who they are through and through. I always felt bad for being pessimistic, narcissistic, and overall cynical but everytime I ask my friends "Should I be more nice or something?" everyone kept telling me no...and being mad I even considered it. It's foolish of me to want to make everyone feel pleased and happy cause not everyone deserves the same respect right off the bat. We are humans first and foremost, and we live to earn what we keep....money, food, clothing, and even the respect and admiration of others.

That is what I was raised on, and that is the foundation of who I am, I have gone by tons of names here...TheO.A, Purplekitty, Isanji, Indigo, IndigoFactory, The Factory, Jamey, and even Omar...

And..people have called me tons of things friend, enemy, moron, petty...whatever you know? All I can say is "So?" I mean slapping a label on me isn't going to make me transform into some super powerful monster that you can slay with childish words and labels. I thought I was a furry but after sitting here watching the things that go on in this community i'm not a furry, I don't care what your definition of one is...what matters to me is MY idea of a furry, I don't like fursuits, I don't like pretending to be an animal, I don't think I was born a tiger, I don't think drawing furry art MAKES me a furry either. I am IndigoFactory, the artist...I draw what I desire, what I like, what I admire, what I see, what I love, and art is the very reason why you hate me, and why you love me. I like humans, I like men who can bench as much as me and like to fight instead of pouting when I toss them an insult. I hate atheists, agnostics, Christians, jews, etc ONLY because the children you breed take on your bad habits and never think for themselves.

I have no issues with god, but my god and my religion are completely separate, my relationship with god is solely my own and how we speak is between him/her and I. That's all you need to know.

I don't take people who use emoticons seriously because it is quite possible to convey emotions without overuse of a superficial expression....I prove everyone who thinks otherwise wrong simply by existing right now.

I'm gonna do as I please, just how you can do and say as you please and not feel a bit bad about it...the only difference is I don't live my life worried about where I stand in society and in your eyes. I am fucking awesome, and not once will you hear me say anyone is beneath me, the only person who can protect me, feed me, cloth me, and take care of me is me.

Go ones own way is what I want all of you to do, take off the mask, be you and if everyone you know rejects you for being open and honest my application for being buddies is one rule "Don't Bullshit Me."

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On FA I thanked a lot of people there for IB I haven't gotten to know many of you aside from the people I already know.

starling
starling
just...thanks for everything, I hope you can keep this site going for a long time and don't stress yourself out.

@kantrawulf who's like one of my new best bro's recently, I dig his personality.

Shokuji
Shokuji
for donating money and being nice

Wolfblade
Wolfblade
for inviting me during the Beta

Lando
Lando
for well I don't know him that well but the backgrounds man...so pretty...I wish I could do that.

For now people just be cool, learn to shut up when you need to, and speak up when you have to.

Peace and love
-IF
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Added: 7 years, 10 months ago
 
starling
7 years, 10 months ago
Thanks Indigo! It's great to have you here. :P
Yoshiba
7 years, 10 months ago
Tsk, tsk, Jery. How is he supposed to take you seriously now? :P
Ishiga
7 years, 10 months ago
" I have no issues with god, but my god and my religion are completely separate, my relationship with god is solely my own and how we speak is between him/her and I. That's all you need to know.


I give an apropos "amen" that sir.
Yoshiba
7 years, 10 months ago
You seem like a very... interesting guy, Indigo. A talented artist, very outspoken, and rather intimidating.

I have to say, though. This: "I hate atheists, agnostics, Christians, jews, etc ONLY because the children you breed take on your bad habits and never think for themselves.", makes very little sense to me. You might as well be saying, "I hate parents because the children they breed (like it's the sole purpose) take on the way they think and believe anything they teach them!" Which... goes without saying, because of course a child is going to follow along with what their parents say; it's only natural.
IndigoFactory
7 years, 10 months ago
Oh I do, for the most part children always take after their parents...exactly like their parents, and in a fit of rebellion try to be unlike them in a sense as well. There's a very small percentage of people who grow up to achieve more than their parents did, but the ones who don't seem to be a majority of the issue, because parents teach children what they think they should know and not what they need to know. Believing that the world is the exact same as when they were children it doesn't allow a child to progress as an individual when a lot of parents never allow their children to question the world around them.

My mother taught me to question everything I see, think, and do. Even her if she doesn't make sense, no matter how frustrated she is that her child is questioning her she is happy knowing I don't follow or believe everything I've heard from someone without doing my own research.

I live how I think, not by what I've been told.
Yoshiba
7 years, 10 months ago
But that's just good parenting skills. Bringing in religion seems like a wobbly catalyst for poor parenting. I'm sure there's some statistic out there that might show to what extent the mindset given to children by their parent's religion is...

Until then it just seems like an odd reason to hate religion. I mean there's just so many other reasons to hate them!
IndigoFactory
7 years, 10 months ago
No...there is no logical reason to despise religion other than the fact that a story told over and over and over again has a different effect on the ears that listen.

You have to understand religion is a system of control yes, but it also a universal method of unconscious understanding. People desire to have a purpose all of us to, and all of us question because that is our nature. But not all of us can explain what we see, what we do, how we feel. We give it a name because if it has a name we can decide on accepting it or denying it.

I don't care about some man who walks on water, another man who can move oceans, or people with wings, celestial bodies, or divine intervention. What matters is that people need these things to live, to survive, they need to believe in something or their existence has no purpose, they fear the unknown...we fear the unknown so we have to call it the unknown simply for the fact that we need to know what it is we fear. And if we tell our children to fear that exact same thing and don't question it (because we don't have an answer) those kids grow up without the fundamental factor that makes them who they are...curiosity. So then these children have children and they pass down the same thing over and over and over. (insert comma's where necessary)

That is why I hate religions, people focus on the ridiculousness of their stories and their logic behind the teachings.....but we're sitting here praising each other for drawing dog cocks, pretending to be animals, and making a whole society out of false behaviors and cultural practices.....are we really so different? Should furries grow up and teach their kids to be furries then THAT would be stupid...however it's no different from Christians teaching their children to be Christians and not saying otherwise.

The only reason there is no consistency is because every other human being born into this world will be overcome with their own nature and try to live a different life than how they are told to. And that is why we progress as a species.
Gobby
7 years, 10 months ago
Here's an interesting quote that you reminded me of: "Man is least himself when he talks in his own person.  Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth."  ~Oscar Wilde.  I'm not trying to undermine the message of your ending sentence, I just thought it was a good saying for the old noggin to contemplate.

I admire how outspoken you are, though it seems a little abrasive to me at times.  To tell the truth, it can be a little off putting, but I can count on you to speak your mind and avoid the sugar coating.  It makes me stop and evaluate the things that I do, which is why I continue to watch you.  Even if I don't agree, the contrast is what matters to me.  It helps keep me level.

IndigoFactory
7 years, 10 months ago
Put two men in a room, one man with a mask on, the other without. Give the masked man a weapon, tell him he can kill the other man and nobody will blame him, nor will he be punished for it. Will the man do so or will he resist the temptation and spare the other mans life.

If the victim is a stranger he would be conflicted, if the victim is his enemy he would not hesitate to slay him.

Anonymity is a curse, it is a mask people have given themselves to show their true colors yes, but because you can wear a mask and tell the truth, does not mean your character is virtuous. People do things they don't normally do behind a mask because they have no shame or worry in their true identity. I believe a truly strong person in both mind and body shouldn't have to pretend to be someone else just to be themselves. A hero can wear a mask to save lives, and live a second life for the protection of those he cares for true...but this is the real world, that kind of fantasy world is a myth and simply imagination

Your enemy has a face, it has a name, it is right in front of you unafraid to hide whom they are. Yet if you think being anonymous and defeating them makes you a better person then the true master of deception is you.

I don't agree with Oscar Wilde, and I would be bold to say his statement isn't thought provoking or factual, it is false in every sense of the world. I don't wear a mask, I come as I am, and do as I say. I feel less of a man and human pretending I am someone I am not, it bothers me, it disturbs me because I wasn't born with that mask on my face, so why should I have to assume a new identity when i'm happy with the one I was born with.

Such a comment does not apply to the furry community, because people are people regardless if they're a fox, a dragon, a snake, a wolf, a bear, a fish, a lizard, it doesn't matter. In the end all you're doing is pretending and despite obviously showing your flaws, if everyone else is pretending they don't see them then who really tells the truth behind a mask?

Think about this quote "If you tell a lie long enough it will eventually become the truth, but not for a second does it ever stop being a lie." A chocolate covered strawberry despite being covered in chocolate...is still a strawberry.
Gobby
7 years, 10 months ago
" I don't agree with Oscar Wilde, and I would be bold to say his statement isn't thought provoking or factual, it is false in every sense of the world.
Well it's obviously thought provoking.  Look at all you have to say about it!

The sake of the mask isn't to show the virtue of the person beneath it, only the truth of their actions.  Whether or not the masked man kills the other man is testament to that.  Perhaps the statement is false to you, and if you are externally as you are internally than I congratulate your honesty, but I know that I would say things differently if I hid behind the "mask."  To say that it is false for everyone is blatantly untrue, and you admit to that in the first part of your statement:
" Anonymity is a curse, it is a mask people have given themselves to show their true colors yes. . .


I may be flawed in assuming a moniker, but it allows me to express things which would normally be socially unacceptable.  I'd rather not just anyone know that I enjoy seeing cub's diddle because that may affect the other parts of my life negatively.  I'd like to have my cake and eat it too, and this allows me to do that.  Surely you can understand that?

Lastly, no matter how many times I tell the lie that the moon is made of cheese, it will never be true.  Truth is not subject to the whims and fancies of us mortals (Though I think what the quote means is that we will believe it to be true).  However, if I gave you a mask you would still tell the truth, even if you would do so normally.  Though the first part of Oscar's statement doesn't hold true for you, the second does.  The only thing you would be lying about is your identity.
IndigoFactory
7 years, 10 months ago
This conversation is going to go in circles so i'd rather drop it, I haven't learned anything I don't already know from it to be honest. As I said it's not thought provoking because it doesn't take me a while to ponder the meaning behind someone words...I simply don't agree that's all there is to it, it's easy comprehension when you've witnessed and observed all kinds of people, even for such a short lifetime I've had thus far.

You continue to watch me I am well aware, but you prefer dawdling behind different identities and pretending to be someone else so you can like the things you like without feeling guilty or having someone find out about your fetishes. Frankly my opinion is obviously going to be contradictory and afterwards you're going to have a counter argument. But i'm going to be honest with you and just say I have no interest in the direction of this conversation, I am past the stage in my life where I take into account the views of others...in a sense I understand you, but it doesn't make sense in a modern day world where you're behaving in a manner you don't have to anymore.

You took the quote out of context and made it into a drastically unrealistic literal meaning. Nobody would care if YOU kept saying the moon was made of cheese but the point of the quote is what you're told over and over again over generations, if people back in the 1200's said the moon was made of cheese, and to date everyone kept saying that how would we know the difference, the truth remains that it's not, but what if everyone wanted to be right regardless of the truth or not...that's the point...but I kind of figured you'd take it in a literal manner but that's expected i'm sorry I shouldn't of used that quote.

Have your cake and eat it too? I won't even start cause that's going to end up a closed argument as well and for me having conversations is like mental chess, at some point you know the direction of the battle and it's a stalemate.

Let me leave you with this by saying the point of my journal is partially a declaration, and warning...unfortunately it is for people such as yourself. While I know your intentions are good and you are happy as you are, the person I am doesn't need that in my life. I don't approve of a lie in any form, because I have been around that type of person, and all of them are now some the most hated people in my lives and the lives of others. Simply put i'm all about the here and now, and moving on to the future I want more people who don't need masks, who can say "I fuck dogs" or "I like jerking off to cub porn" and not giving a shit about who thinks what of them. Because that's how I live and even people who disagree and would normally shun me (a lot of them with the same mind frame you have already do) still respect me as I do them. And that is why hiding behind a mask is utter bullshit in this day and age, the world is evolving and lifestyles are changing.

I hope you come to understand in time. If not, still cool, just be careful because you're going to fall in and out of friendships, relationships, and miss a ton of good opportunities over simply disagreeing with how a person shows their colors.

peace and love
-IF
Gobby
7 years, 10 months ago
Fair enough.  I usually don't do this sort of thing anymore, because in the end I feel uncomfortable with arguing even though I'll argue ceaselessly if I let myself, even if I end up agreeing with the person.  Your stance is admirable, and I once again congratulate you on living such an honest life.    I'm afraid that I don't have the sort of courage to live like that, but I don't disagree with how you show your colors.
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