Been making myself go to be a little more regularly now and actually listening to my body instead of taking a melatonin pill to force myself to sleep. Huh, guess the ol pineal gland still works after all. I still get depressed feeling / tired in the afternoons though. Made myself take a walk outside today for once in...i can't remember. Saw a whole bunch of deer outside in the front yard, it was pretty surreal. They watched me just as intently as I watched them. How lucky I thought, that they get to roam around where ever they please. Hopping over fences, snacking on whatever looks good, and never having to be a part of this silly society with all it's nuerotic tendencies.
I'm currently in the middle of RMA hell also ^^; I bought a monoprice tablet, only to find that you can't lock in to one monitor only. I also spent money on a Wacom Intuos3 9x12 then paniced the next morning and cancelled my order on Amazon. It was a new seller with no feedback at all, so after I'd slept, I realized it was a pretty big risk. Luckily with amazon as the middle man they refund your money in a day or two. So till then $180 of my dough is in limbo land, along with another $50 for monoprice. Yay, ghost money. So far that's a wacom stylus, a monoprice tablet, and another wacom tablet that i've rejected / RMA'ed in less than two weeks. Boy...what luck...
On a positive note, ArtHawk has been molested by my paws again. It now has a pause function, a stop function, a max download slider that goes up to 20, a watch list fetcher that fetches the watch list of whatever user name you give it, a help text thingy (still w.i.p.), and a nicer about box (planning). I'm going to include a bit of my own drawings on those last two just to give it a funny personal touch :)
Starting to think I'm missing the MGAT2 gene lately 0_0. Here's a short article about it I just read. I 'used' to weigh 150lbs when I was 18 or 19. I still weigh 150lbs 10 years later. Don't worry lol I pay for that every winter. I used to worry about getting bigger but apparently, that's not very possible. Guess that's why I really love it when it's literally 90+ here. Sooo damn comfy ^.^ Wouldn't even mind sweating. Come on summer, melt my ice cream cones, make my sandals gooey, I dare ya!
And as for streaming.... I think I make better art when I do it by myself and for myself. Listening to 'helpful' suggestions + requests + debates + whatever else while trying to make art that I care about is....next to impossible. I don't like thinking or worrying about what other ppl think about what I make, at least not afterwords. But right in the moment when I'm actually making art...geeez....that's hell. I do like most folks that stop by, they polite, friendly, well intentioned. But I just can't get myself in the right mindset with ppl chatting around me. I remember I used to work alone A LOT back in 2008-2010. I don't really know if I can even draw anymore with 1 person talking to me on skype. I don't mean this as a negative thing toward anyone. It's just....the way my brain works...I can't help that. Art + a little solitude is pretty much the traditional way artists work - at least so I've read. It makes sense. So, if I have a comish, I'd perfer to work on it by myself. Heh, think of it like I go into my cave, make some cool stuff, and come back out and show it around.
So atm I'm just window shopping for another Intuos tablet. Can't decide between the 3 or the 5 yet, I'll just wait it out. Or save up for a new computer. Still learning the best way to go about this "doing art for money" thing. A lot of it just just the way I approach making art that's mine. Not used to taking requests/orders/demands at all when it comes to that. I think that's why I like to keep people away when I do the art thing. I mean like one time doesn't matter, but multiply that enough times and it's stressful, even if the person doesn't intend it. From outer appearances (at least what i've seen) some furry artists are able to talk to 10+ people at the same time on skype, reply to 10+ people in the chat box, and still manage to paint or draw perfectly smooth lines in their art program like it's nothing. Ah well, I ain't super extrovert man so, deal with it :P My brain, one idea, one canvas, nothing else exists at the moment. ^^