So.... today was the first day workimg (more or less)... its a low level data entery position and an elderly peaples home. Its really reading over a list and taking note of what people did and whatever. The only hard part to it is reading the handwriting on the sign in sheet.
Though, when I went in today, an older woman stopped me (she has to have been in her 80s, no exageration) and said "you are very talented. I hope to hear you playagain sometime soon. (I don't play any instrament or anything, lol), I judt replied "oh, thank you, miss" and kept going. I didn't want to be mean or correct her, because I sometimes seem like a dick and often feel like one when I correct people.... ywah... lol
Also, also, also, I made some super awesome jello ther other day. It was black cherry jellow, and we plopped bblueberries in that floated to the top when we put it into the freezer (I chose freezer for time. 4 hours in the fridge to get firm, half an hour in the freezer), so the blueberries ended up between the black cherry level and lemon jello level. In lemon, we put cut up strawberries, which also floated up to the top, then we poured in lime ontop of that. You have no idea how amazing it turned out! The colors didn't blur or get all mixed and jumbled, lol. It was seriously really good!
Uhm... what else... my laptop aparently needs a new hard drive.......
Oh, and I've been really upset lately seeing how much I've changed, mostly in the last year or so....... I miss being more fucked in the head and depressed (I am depressed now, aparently, but back then, I had more of a 'burn down the world and dance in the ashes' kind of thaught process... now, I am just a puss.... I've always put others ahead of myself, but... idk, I feel like more of.a pussy now... I ujsed to be such a fighter, strong willed too... now I am all acomodating and just... eh.....)..... yeahhh
Hmmmmmm..... I feel there's more....
Oh, yeah! My ability to rembmer, as well as the ability to communicat ferbally have been deteriorating pretty bad.... if you guys know any tricks to improving memory, I would very much love to hear it/them!
My books... not coming along since laptop is indesposed.....
Gaining more weight still....... depressing.......
Ever really just not feel like doing anything? That's how I've been...... I just.... idk.... just don't want to do anything... I want to just float in purgitory for a little.... soulless and drained a lot....... idk....
Yeah, I am writing this at 1 am..... can't sleep... I actually feel wide awake.... not fun........
I think that may be everything for now... hmmm........
Yup, that's everything
Later boys and girls! I hope to be on more often soon!
6 years, 8 months ago
02 May 2012 07:19 CEST