I love it on Inkbunny so much better than FA. That entire culture there was just... toxic. I realized recently that old habits from being on FA are still residually occuring. Like for example, it used to be that I'd see somebody comment on a few BE sequences, then watch me, and I'd think, "Great, can't wait until I upload the first gay or underage thing and they flip the fuck out, then I'll have to slap them down and the entire experience will just be a pain in the ass instead of any fun at all." There are so many cagey little assumptions I used to make that I find myself reflexively having even still, but thus far, there's no call for them. I've had nothing but a good time here, aside from your occasional drooling idiot who doesn't know how to read. But that's everywhere.
God, why did I ever want to go back to that dump? In retrospect, I can't even imagine it. I know intellectually it was for the people, but after a certain point, you just have to wonder.
Also, I feel less of a need to be mean in general. I never realized how callous FA made me, how much of a dick I was in response to the same kinds of things I used to patiently endure. It was a defense mechanism, but still, wow.
So if I'm a massive asshole out of nowhere, it's probably because I'm still getting used to the idea that I don't have to be.
7 years ago
28 Apr 2012 03:25 CEST