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ChocolateKitsune

Overcoming Self-Constraints

Lately, I thought that working on some more neutral content (namely, character sheets for my little posse of OCs) would help ease me into regaining some confidence in my own work, but the insecurity has only persisted. I hate being in this state, cause it gets me into a mental catch 22.

One of the best solutions to breaking out of an art block is making things. Unfortunately, when I'm feeling exceedingly insecure, what I make isn't good for this. The selective bias boils down to, "what I've achieved was trivial, what I've yet to attempt is insurmountable." Worse still, seeing others' fantastic work broadly has an effect counter to inspiration. "It's been done now, likely better than you'll manage it if you tried."

It only further discourages me from focusing on my strengths since I'm too busy regretting the ideas I didn't have. Don't even get me started on the troublesome ideas surrounding the use of reference material and maintaining originality within this community.

I've been trying hard to train myself out of worrying about that and just focus on making good art, derivative or not. It's not easy. This is very much a "me" problem, but when I'm in my vulnerable state, any new idea I see is simply territory that's no longer accessible to me. Basically, someone's "claimed" it. Anything related will be derivative. Copying is verboten, but where is the line?

It's ridiculous.

I can't wait until I've found my groove within a little niche of my own style of personal content, even though I still hope to tackle a fairly diverse spread of themes. Right now, though, I still feel paralyzed cause of so many different factors and choices available to me.

I have some direction now, at least. That's better than I was when I launched my site and migrated from Patreon, but there's still a long road ahead of me to feel like I'm really creating what I consider "my own" content again. I'll be dealing with growing pains until then.

Thanks for reading through this. I'm okay, I just have some self-destructive ideas about what constitutes acceptable work, which I have yet to reconcile. I know they aren't true, but they still hold a lot of sway in how I do my thing.

I think the one thing that hurts the most is that by now, it ought to be as easy for me as "just drawing," but it isn't yet.

I'll get there, though.
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Added: 4 weeks, 1 day ago
 
zaigane
4 weeks, 1 day ago
Whenever I have these kinds of thoughts, I always have to back off and look at what I'm doing. Are you drawing just to get "better" or for another purpose? Do you know what that purpose is?

I know I enjoy sketchier styles like yours more than a lot that people see as "good art", because it shows more of what you want out of the piece and not just some mechanical "good".
ChocolateKitsune
4 weeks ago
Yeah, in this situation it's easy to miss the forest for the trees. There's a lot of options available to me to start carving out a new little niche for myself and build from there. I'm just a little stuck figuring out where to start from right now, and likely putting a bit too much importance on that one decision.
thejediluke
4 weeks, 1 day ago
In the words of D&D, "Everything has been done before, so don't worry about being original. Just try to have fun with it." I always thought some people were ridiculous when it came to protecting their stuff. As someone who likes Fifi La Fume, I've come across 50 other purple skunks, and there are only so many ways you can draw a skunk purple before they look the same :P *Rant over*

Anyway, I feel you should know that, 99 out of 100 times, I can pick out a piece of artwork you've drawn. You have a unique softness to your art that makes all your characters look like you could walk up and hug each of them. I look at skunks all the time, but I can see them all and go, "Oh look, a new ChocolateKitsune skunk!"

I hope this helps you to feel better. Our own minds can be our worst enemies at times, but I wanted you to know that there are people that appreciate the time and effort you put in to making your art, and that it does stand out against everyone else's. ♡

lucashoal
4 weeks, 1 day ago
Agreed, I've been a fan of Choco's style for so long because he just has this. Such a unique style that I really dig, the soft is wonderful.
ChocolateKitsune
4 weeks ago
Thank you vixy 💖 That means a lot, even as much as I'd like to downplay the importance of originality in favour of good execution.
lucashoal
4 weeks ago
If nothing else, your style is just so...yeah, absolutely unique. Uniquely yours and it's one reason why I've stuck around. That and of course because *you're* a sweetie too.
ChocolateKitsune
4 weeks ago
Thanks so much, Luke. I often hesitate to post this kind of thing cause I can't help but feel like I'm fishing for compliments, but sometimes I genuinely need the reassurance that I'm doing okay, and that my concerns are over-exaggerated.

I'm very flattered you think that way about my art and more specifically my skunks, as they're definitely one of my favourite subjects to play with.

I was just trying to psych myself up to stream and reading this has helped my mood tremendously. Thank you so much. 💖
thejediluke
4 weeks ago
I'm glad I could help, CK. I really do like your cuddly critters, and I love a good skunk, and you draw some darn cute ones. ^_^
ChocolateKitsune
3 weeks, 5 days ago
💖💖
DrakenUshtar
3 weeks, 3 days ago
I don't know how much it's worth, but I've always really loved your art and art style.
ChocolateKitsune
1 day ago
It's genuinely worth a lot, so thank you for saying so <3
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