I don't know where to begin. Last week turned into the week of hell for me when I found out of your passing. I feel like blaming myself for not being there when I should have been, even though I know that's not true. For the last eight years you have been the only one of my social circle whom I've never met and yet someone I could trust implicitly. That word -- trust -- it's an important one to me. It's also something that doesn't come easy and not something I just give away. Somehow you were able to earn it effortlessly -- a feat only accomplished by so few, and you were able to do it over a stream of electrons.
As I sit here and write this, I'm crying over everything I'll never be able to share with you. I won't be able to tell you anymore how much you made me smile and how much I love you for it. I won't be able to grow old with you and share the good times, to sit cozy by the fire and reminisce. So I'll just have to settle for sharing your memory with others by going out and being a better person everyday, even if it means to make someone else smile the way you did me. You took on Azlynn and Aiden like no other, bringing happiness into every step of the process. I think you'd be quite surprised by how much I've learned from you, as a patron, as a person, as a friend.
Friendship. It's a tough concept to pin down because it means something different to each of us. I think it's because what friendship is -- is based on values -- yours and mine. To me, it means walking hand in hand, regardless of superficial differences. It means to brim with light in darkness, to act with love in the midst of hate, and to cherish every moment you have because they may not come again. I'm pretty sure that's why it hurts so much -- it was real.
I want you to know that whatever happens, I will take these lessons, teach them to others, and apply them to the rest of my life. I will be a better person everyday in spite of the selfish world we live in. Lastly, I want you to know that you are loved by more than you know and will continue to be even though you're no longer with us. Sleep well sweetie, my dear Paupe, and please don't forget to check in on us from time to time.
i dont know what to say ... you wrote that very nice ... all this will follow us for weeks. he was very special on this planet. its a shame that he had to go like this. a tight hug from me to you aiden. we all which was close to him going through this right now. am sobbing since i heard it and i cant hear it anymore from my rl friends that i have to move on ... at one point pushed i one of them down and screamed at them that they have no idea how i feel and that they should get out of my sight before i forget myself.
i know, friends of mine may only want to help me but it hurts so much T.T
i dont know what to say ... you wrote that very nice ... all this will follow us for weeks. he was v
I didn't know him that well, but understood the good he did for the community and that the news devastated everyone that knew him. I just want to share my sympathies and say that your letter to him is a beautiful thing to share. I am sure if we could hear his opinion on it, that he would be humbled by the trust you had in him and how much your friendship meant to you. It is great that you don't want to focus on the things you can no longer do, but share all that he had given you and pass on his loving spirit.
I didn't know him that well, but understood the good he did for the community and that the news deva
