Is there a way to be assertive, but not an asshole...
is there a way to be selfish, yet nice?
Is there a way to show a person the pain they've caused, without becoming the monster that you have wanted to avoid your entire life?
A way to be honest. a way to take back words without looking like a hypocrite. A way to... forget pain, maybe?
no not forget pain... it's impossible to do that. even with narcotics and alcohol it's only a temporary solution. A situation popped up in my life (i'd have to PM details, because... honestly it's a doozy of an issue...) and now my head is kind of spinning in it. I'm sitting here wondering just what the hell i got myself into, and it's only seeming to get worse the longer i think about the way i handled the situation.
I will have hurt two people by the end i'd imagine... at least if everything is going the way i've heard... i don't... i don't know, honestly. This situation is honestly some new territory for me.
To a person involved in this situation (who may or may not discover that they're the one i'm talking about) ... i never meant for it to hurt... but i had to do something or my heart would explode. my mind would have never recovered... and i hope you can understand one day, if not immediately...
6 years, 5 months ago
12 Apr 2012 19:54 CEST