Liam has been my main fursona for over 15 years now. For me, my fursona was always meant to represent me at the very core. Personality, mannerism, and so forth. Except of course the lack of a shared history also made him different from me, something more, something I could never be. I was a very different person, when I created Liam. For quite some time now, I’ve felt uneasy being sort of stuck with Liam. I’ve experimented with different characters, but I was never really satisfied.
Maël, Andrew… I even brought my old (predating Liam) Gomamon fursona, Tatsuya, back. And I love every single one of my characters. However, the more I aged, the less I felt represented by any of them. It was fun to play them occasionally, but I never felt represented by them. Not even Liam anymore. Though for a while I was unwilling to just discard Liam. Plus, having to find an artist to draw a new ref, stickers and all that… I kind of gave up, thinking it couldn’t happen.
It finally got to the point I couldn’t stand it anymore and I pulled the trigger. I created a basic character sheet, then a friend suggested an artist and I went full in investing the necessary resources. And before I knew it, Carter was born. Finally, I have a new fursona, that I feel represents me a lot more. He’s a more idealised version of me, the persona I wish I was, and could have been, if I had made some different choices in my life.
I didn’t realise it at the time, but Liam always projected a certain… image of myself. Very sexualised, slutty… He was always something of a statement. Ironically, I never was a particularly sexual person. Though, due to my psychological issues, I never quite understood people. I didn’t understand how to interact with people, I feared people, and I distrusted them. Sex was something I understood, something I could work with.
These days, I’ve clearly grown older, perhaps wiser. I regret a lot of things. In creating Carter, I’ve also taken a good long look at myself. I’m more at peace with myself and my past. There are still things I have to work on, but at least I’ve resolved my issues on the furry side of things. Being Carter will be good for me and I’m a lot happier, now that I’m making the change official.
- Liam Aether is now retired as my main fursona.
- Carter Williams has officially taken over.
I’ll be posting the refs of Carter to my gallery. I’ve been working on a story featuring Carter’s past. I was initially hoping to release it with the refs, but it’s been taking longer that I thought. I’m not the best author, but it’s been important to me to write his story.
I apologise for the wall of text.
Carter
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01 Jun 2019 00:11 CEST
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