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RoareyRaccoon

Coming to Terms

I've made a lot of journals over the past couple years that are filled with angst, but this one won't be. Well, a little bit of angst XP. For the past year and a half I've been trying to make my art a proper self-employed business. Trying. In truth, all it has done is made me more miserable, which is fucking saying something. Drawing commissions is no different in how it feels to me than back when I worked minimum wage in restaurants. Washing dishes, cleaning tables, making meals etc. In other words, I hate it. It's also made me not want to draw at all, since every piece I draw for me feels like a betrayal of responsibility to the people waiting for me to draw their commissions.

I've tried numerous ways of motivating myself. Taking payment only upon completion was an attempt to let some pressure escape; that didn't work. Streaming was a way of using pressure as motivation, having people watch me live so I feel more obliged to work. That just makes me stressed like a motherfucker, since I have anxiety disorder, haha.

To cut a long story short, I'm retiring from commissions. I'm not going to do them anymore. My current queue will be finished, so those of you already waiting on art, you will get it. After that, though, no more, I'm done. I want to create things I care about and have others enjoy them, nothing more. I'm done sacrificing my soul for money, it's too much for me.

Hopefully, this'll mean more art from me in the future, once my obligations have been settled. You may have noticed my lack of content, how little of it gets produced lately, well now you know why. Peace XP.
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Added: 5 years ago
 
Olly
5 years ago
Good for you, Roarey. I took the same path with my art, and honestly, it's been so much easier. Creating what you want on your own terms, when you want, and how you want is very liberating. If you make mistakes, there's no worries. Having money is nice, but having peace of mind is better, in my opinion.
RoareyRaccoon
5 years ago
Aye, fuck the money XP.
KevinSnowpaw
5 years ago
you cant take it with you
kiwakiwa
4 years, 11 months ago
i'm going to..
my casket will be pressed from piles of cash instead of wood....
GreenFur
5 years ago
Art for Art's sake they say "do what you love and the money will come", but you were NOT loving it you were hateing ot and the money stayed away, so  draw what YOU want to draw do the things that you LOVE and attract the money that way. but do Not do it FOR the money, you saw what happened when you tried to go that route. don't worry about it for now,  a lot of people have a very avesarial and toxic relationship with money but we can talk about that at a later time if you like my friend. for now, take the time to breathe, and think about what projects YOU want to work on.
--GF
YIFFGOD
5 years ago
I’ve been seeing a lot of journal entries similar to this one from multiple artists lately, and it’s sad to see you and other artists struggle just to meet ends meet ,and going through depression.

I wish I could help You and all the other artists stay HAPPY & MOTIVATED.............somehow

If I had the money  I would become everyone’s Sugar DADDY    LOL

Anyway.............. HUGS & KISSES .................take it easy (•^~^•)
StabbityDeath
5 years ago
Do what you love, totally!  Go for it!
AsherTye
5 years ago
This is honestly why I don't do commissions and limit requests to good friends.  It can begin to feel too much like work even for the best of people and suddenly this thing that gave you joy just becomes another stressors in your life.  
GreenPika
5 years ago
wow it's really weird hearing this end of the problem. At this rate I'd be ecstatic if someone commissioned me to make fart noises for fuck sake lol.

Well hope you find what you need to be happy in life dude.
rick2tails
5 years ago
if its too stressful for you then thats the right decision.
pentrep
5 years ago
I respect your decision and hope this makes you happy. :)
TeaPartyRabbit
4 years, 12 months ago
For the artists that can pump out art without a second glance, more power to them.  For the rest of the folks out there, I don't see how they even try as the stress is not worth the effort, unless you make it known that this will get done when it gets done.  I'd rather do a simple mindless job and be done when the clock tells me I can leave, than put up with some of the commissioner stories I have heard.  I draw for a living, but would never draw commissions period.  Just not worth the stress.  I have enough issues as it is, no need to be ASKING for more.  Just let me sleep when I want to sleep.  Draw what you want and get a job that you can leave when the clock says you can, no strings (or lines) attatched.  Oh, you might owe me a drawing from a while back, I'm in no rush.  Might have missed it, no worries.
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