Roadbumps

by Smolfoks

Since the beginning, art has always been an on and off thing for me. I'm either super motivated and productive and can't wait to have the time to draw, or I feel the polar opposite and can't force my self to pick up my pen.

Iv found that most of my ability/willingness to draw is tied 100% to my overall mood/stress/general disposition. When Im not particularly stressed or worried, I tend to draw a lot, whereas if I'm hitting a rough patch, I don't draw at all. It really sucks too, because finishing a drawing is a huge happiness booster for me, and I don't really have a lot of other sources to tap into to get a feeling of accomplishment.

Idk, this has just been something I'v struggled with since I started getting into art, and its really troublesome and irritating to be held back so hard by personal moods/emotions that I have little control over. I have something thats all but guaranteed to bring me joy, yet I can't force myself to do anything about it a lot of the time.

I guess I'm just curious if you all have similar experiences/frustrations.

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SnootsnSnorts

4 years, 9 months ago

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I know this is an old journal and apologize for replying to it if you'd rather it just be left alone *Just delete this comment if so~* but I feel the exact same way. Most of the time I want to draw at least once a day or every other day, but usually I'm unable to due to life or, especially, emotions.

I get really bummed out when I can't draw, sometimes to the point where the whole day just follows that disappointment. I've been trying to just tell myself to draw for the sake of drawing and not to worry about the quality, which sometimes works but usually I just get anxious and discouraged when I have an idea on what I want to doodle out and it comes out looking nothing like I imagined. Normally I would just settle for doodle quality and be done with it but even that becomes a challenge and I have no idea why.

I definitely know what you mean when you say you get happy when you can actually pull off a drawing, and I think that makes that whole disappointment even worse because you know what an awesome feeling it is to get that accomplishment of completion... but it's so far and few between. I guess I'm just saying to know that there are indeed others out there with the same disposition ^oo^