Guess I should give a little update on what's going on, why commissions aren't opened yet ( if any of you were interested) and why art may be slowing down for a bit.
A little bit before the new year, I started having health issues (again). Having pains in my chest, which doesn't seem like much. But for some reason, every time I felt the slightest thing off in my chest, my mind would begin to panic and I would worry if I was having something major happening... like a heart attack or something just as deadly.
This had been happening on and off, but a few days after Christmas, the issues started keeping me up at night. After a few days of getting very little sleep; I ended up going into the ER. They simply found out I was having bad indigestion, gave me some meds for that and should have been the end of it.
Well, it wasn't. Because a few days later, I ended up having a very massive panic attack while driving on the road. Which landed me back in the ER for the rest of the day. I just felt like I way dying most of the day...until I stopped.
Finally after going to my doctor, it was concluded that I'm having bad anxiety attacks. Physically there's nothing wrong with me, except the indigestion issue. But mentally...I'm a mess. I just kept feeling like I was going to die is some way or form and it was causing my brain to hit my "Panic Button" like the fist of an angry god.
So, this kinda leads us to present day. I've been on anxiety medication for a month now and lemme tell ya....They fuck you up for the first couple of weeks. In addition, I've been on sleeping pills aswell.
This mix had almost fully destroyed my motivation on pictures.
Everything you've seen done has mostly been in my 'backlog" of images. And doing anything new is just...a chore right now.
I'm still battling this anxiety thing, seeing therapist and keeping up with the meds...but for right now, I'm in no condition to do commissions as I'm having a hard enough time doing my own stuff.
I'll try to give an update on anything changing. For now I apologize to anyone who's been waiting for me to open again.
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11 Feb 2019 20:17 CET
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