2018's Death

So I have just been informed that the end of the year has been attained once again. This. This is unprecedented. Soon, time will even outpace the expansion rates of the universe!
Well, joking aside, that means it's time for me to recap my year's experiences as I have done since the very start, back in 2013 when I first joined this fandom.
And maaaaan oh man. What a year this was. Probably the year I've done the most in this fandom up to this point! Still not a whole lot, but it is compared to before, and I cannot be happier than now for me to say, things, they're looking up for me, slowly but surely.
This year was spent almost entirely on recovery. Every year I have been in this fandom has NOT been kind to me, if you haven't noticed. The last two years, 2016 and 2017 being the most damning of all. I have made great strides this year, but there is still more to go. So. How did this year shape up for me??

In the month of January 2018...
Immediately I have hit a milestone-- My first local furmeet. I know right? Took god damn long enough. Well, being in Wyoming, small towns, and an abuse ex's house over the course of five years kiiiiiinda stopped me big time if you could not tell. During this month I got away from that ex, moved to Aurora, Colorado, and experienced my first two local furmeets thanks to this fact. I may pretty much live in the slums right now... But it IS close to a lot of stuff so there is that.
On the downside though, this was when I was starting to notice a serious shift for the worse in my health. 2018 was probably the worst year ever in terms of my overall physical health and I still do not know why...

In the month of February 2018...
Not too much different happened just yet. Started a job at a new location, one that TOTALLY sucked balls by the way. Continued the furmeet escapades. Funny how I went from being able to go to none, to a couple a month. Colorado's furry community is quite active. ^^
This was a pretty rocky month as a whole. Probably the worst or second worst of the year. But even at that, it wasn't even that bad. Place it in 16/17... And it would seem like one of the best.
Also KINDA worth noting is the progression of Life is Just a Storm, really starting to get into gear around this time..

In the month of March 2018...
FINALLY started playing Xenoblade Chronicles 2. I dunno if y'all know this, but the Xenoblade trilogy of games are my favorite games, like. Ever. So good. In fact, I practically tossed this month into actually... playing it so nothing much happened. Oops. ^^;;;

In the month April 2018...
Beat Xenoblade 2 and... DEAR LORD. I caught a real nasty cold this month, and it pretty much dominated the final third or so of the month. It was nasty for just how damn long it lasted...! I think my roommate

SergeantQuin keeps getting me sick... X_X; ...As you can probably tell, not a helluva lot happened in the first half of the year really. It's when we get to the second half where things begin to get interesting...
This month's Foxtrot, which is a major furmeet for Colorado every even numbered month, was a pretty big blast tho.

In the month of May 2018...
Still not much happened. The gist of my initial recovery was to raise as much money as I can in order to regain what I had lost in the previous years. A-as much as I can of course. May was sort of just focused on that shizzles. That damn cold finally went away. Over three weeks long. Please let that never happen again.
I-I also sworn I would try to use Lukan and Klaus more often, b-but that hasn't panned out...! What is wrong with me aaahhh…!

In the month of June 2018...
So things start getting more interesting... June, right off the bat, started with me rage quitting Walmart. Four stores and three years later, they finally got me to just straight up quit. This was not great at first, as my future depended on me raising money on its behalf. So that... Was probably why I am still not satisfied just yet right now. Peh.
Well, it did give me more time to focus on LIJAS at least.. I dunno when I would have gotten done with Blizzard if I did not have a month to myself for a while. That, and I got to hang out with a lot of friends more often too, so there is that!
Oh yeah. Got my learner's permit too. Can't forget about that.

In the month of July 2018...
A lot of things. Just. A lot.
I went to Anthrocon. So time to cross off my first con off the checklist of furry trashy things of me to do...
I wonder what else I could-- Oh! Commission a fursuit, that's another good one! Checkaroo! ...Still waiting for it tho. Aaaaagh! The wait! I was informed it was gonna be agonizing and they were NOT wrong...!
And I started a new job! Which is... better than before I guess, but I am not really liking it quite as much anymore... Bleh.
And also. My main computer died. The one that I had for quite some time just went kaput. So depressing. A friend gave me their craptop which would hopefully tide me over until I got a new good one, but uh... That... Did not last that long either. I demand a lot out of my stuff. Guess it was just too much. XP
Aaaand to round things out, found a furmeet in Aurora that's weekly. What. A total 180 from this point previously...
AND I STARTED MY TELEGRAM STICKER PACK. Courtesy of

strawbear Thank you so much for bearing with me! Especially since there will be around 150 of them. S-so far anyways...! OoO;;

In the month of August 2018...
Denfur! The new convention that takes place in Denver after the disastrous end of RMFC! Living in Aurora, a 15 minute drive from the convention center pretty much guaranteed my attendance. Won a couple gaming tournaments there. Cool. Had to miss some furmeets partially to make sure I could go. Work... would not appreciate me trying to get a lot of time off so soon.
So after all that, my bank account, and the progress I made towards my goals were just... dashed, delayed, and destroyed...
Was it worth? Hell yes.

In the month of September 2018...
Things started to quiet down after quite the eventful summer. My temp craptop went into cardiac arrest and I was out of a computer for half the month plus almost all of October. THAT SUCKED. If anything, I managed to finish LIJAS Part 1 amidst the technological chaos!

In the month of October 2018...
Gots my new, super powerful $2,000 computer that once again put my bank under a bit of stress, but it was one of the things on my list of things to obtain in order to regain control of my life. So that's fiiiiiiine.
Declared my long time best friend

MattFrostpaws

my sweetheart <3 after knowing each other for six years, a month before I even joined this trashpile.
Started to truly see what I have been needing to do with my life this entire time, especially what all my critical flaws were. I had quite the self revelation around this time. I feel more determined than ever to make the future I desire my reality. After all, Aero Novara, who celebrated his 7th birthday during this month, is all about my resilience to persevere towards the future..

In the month of November 2018...
November was another very quiet month, probably the quietest of the entire year in all honesty... The only thing to really note is my appearance on Discord, which I gotta do more with by the way...
The month was basically about pulling together my budget in order to rebound from getting the new computer. Other than that it was the same old stuff. Weekly meets. Overnight job. On hiatus as well as I wanted to take a break from LIJAS for a while. Just... working towards my goals one day at a time...

In the month of December 2018...
Whew, my 22nd birthday was uh... was quite the blast! Cannot believe the Foxtrot meet landed on it... A-among other things I should probably keep to myself ^^;;;
SMASH BROS. ULTIMATE THO
More work. Really got tricky, thank you Christmas. Oh and also an unfortunate bout of depression around said holiday. I've only just now shaken it off as I am writing this. Sad times.
But other than that, December is where I started working on some things that will hopefully come to fruition in early 2019. Like LIJAS Part 2, some YouTube stuff. I hope to get more into gaming and play stuffs with some of you guys!

All a part of my plan to make 2019 THE year for me. As I walk and work. Step by step. Making strides towards the future I desire. The future I decided I will already have. I hope 2019 will be the vehicle I need, and have the last of what I have yet to obtain in order to do just that. My fursuit. A car. A whole new life. A whole new me. I might even become united with my sweetheart Matt sometime next year, even though I still don't expect that until the turn of the decade.. Anthrocon and Denfur are cons I plan to return to even though the former just got a little... Complicated.
We'll see! Even if I have already decided my future, I know that there will be challenges to face that will attempt to write it contrary to my favoring. Just as I have persevered through the turning point in 2013...
The desolation of 2014...
The silence of 2015...
The destruction of 2016...
The betrayal of 2017...
And the slow recovery of 2018...
Whatever the next year has in store for me in particular, I have this to say: Feel free to try and break the spirit of the Incarnation of Willpower itself. I dare you.
As I hope 2019 will continue the positivity I have had overall this year, I hope for the same for all of you! I will see you all. Next year XP

2017: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8561306/
2016: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8002393/
2015: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7281359/
2014: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6383942/

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