At the end of 2017, with 2018 just looming around the corner, I had felt...lost, and unfulfilled. My life wasn't going in any particular direction and I was only just beginning to upload stories for people to read. I felt pretty depressed about where my life was at and what it was going to be like moving forward. Reception on my stories was middling, and I didn't have a lot of friends. It was difficult. I honestly thought 2018 would be worse.
It's been...different. It's been a rollercoaster of emotions, of news, of my 'career', as it were. I started picking up more meaningful traction, commissions were starting to come in, and everything finally felt like it was falling into place.
One of the biggest things I've had to come across in 2018 was the feeling of heartbreak. I'm not divulging the details, and I don't plan on getting sentimental or airy with my comments, but I will say that it opened my eyes in a lot of ways. I'm not necessarily more mature, but I'm definitely a different person now than I was then. I made friends, fell out with some, and even made some enemies. In all of it, I feel like 2018 has really shaped me into becoming a better version of me.
2019 will be better, of that I'm certain. I feel more confident with my work, confident enough to really do the things I want to do with it. I feel free-er now than I have ever been, and I feel like that's a good thing. I have my newfound friends and the connections I've made to thank for that.
To those who know me, I wish you the best of 2019, and you might likely hear that from me on a more personal level. To those who I am estranged from, those who I dislike, those who I have not seen in a while... I hope the best for you too.
2019 will be new, and it will be different. I hope for all of us that it shapes us into better people.
Sorry for being weirdly sentimental, I guess! Haha, I just get kinda of misty-eyed and wistful around this time of year. I just think back on all the things that have happened and feel both nostalgic and sad at the same time. I've made my fair share of mistakes, but also made a fair share of great memories that I will cherish, always.
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30 Dec 2018 21:35 CET
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