Hey guys~

guys and gals.... its Christmas Eve!! wish all of you a awesome Holiday Season and a Happy New Year!!, but there is a Elephant in my room that needs to be addressed... sadly this is the month that I have the most difficult time in my life to settle with... that I feel the most emotional in... I cant really control my emotions during December because a lot has happened in this month alone that causes me grief, my Grandmother (2003) passed away this month, I had 3 emotional breakups this month (2011, 2014, 2015), I end up alone mostly this month, and this will be the 5th year not spending time with my family.... so please guys have faith for me.... and I hope 2019 will be a better year for me.... Thank you all for your growing support, love, and devotion to me and I love all of you deeply.... thanks guys ill be away this week to prepare for whatever may happen to me...