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nh63879

It's a lonely, lonely life for me

I'll just come out and say it

I'm alone.
I'm out of the picture.
I'm an outcast.
I'm a real life 'lone wolf'.
I'm not one of the popular kids.
I'm not welcomed by others.
I'm the one who cant have the best things in life.
I'm the one who stays in the kitchen at parties.
I'm the one sitting next to the empty chair at the dance.
I'm that one looking in the window at everyone's happiness.
I'm the faceless slug. I'm the one who is seen but not heard.
I'm the real ugly duckling.
I'm the one that will never go to the ball.
I'm depressed.
I'm not able to get anything right.
I'm rejected.
I'm having the horrors of the past entering the one place I feel happy and welcomed in.
I'm only here right now with myself and nobody else.
I'm giving up.
I'm surrendering.
I'm not meant to be happy at all.
I'm not meant to have anyone.
I'm destined to be a lone and walk this road by myself, without even a single helping hand to hold.
I'm losing faith.
I'm sure nobody will even know I've gone.
I'm sure many will just say "Oh yeah, that guy" when I'm even mentioned, then move on.
I'm sorry.



Well, there! I said it! What now? Anyone going to say anything? Anyone?

Please?
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Added: 5 years, 6 months ago
 
Klandagi
5 years, 6 months ago
Hi.
nh63879
5 years, 6 months ago
hello
Klandagi
5 years, 6 months ago
I hope you're doing okay.
nh63879
5 years, 6 months ago
Yeah I'm slowly getting back on my feet. It's gonna take a bit of time but I'll get there again.
Klandagi
5 years, 6 months ago
Good to know. I'd help, if I could.
babybunnydiapercute
5 years, 6 months ago
It's sad to be rejected by people for not being like them, but do not be so think about those who love you and care about you no matter what you are , love yourself and of value to the true friends, I hope I have helped.
nh63879
5 years, 6 months ago
Yeah I shouldn't really be so harsh on myself. But I only wish those who ignore me or don't want to speak to me could just say why. Why me? What have I done? I know who those people are, but I don't intend to name and shame them. I know they're around and I can't stop them from being in the same places as me. I suppose all I can do is just forget them and move on.
FurleyLavandria
5 years, 6 months ago
as someone that was an outcast themselfs
i was different and honestly i wouldnt change me just for others to 'like' me
i stay true to myself regardless of what others think
nh63879
5 years, 6 months ago
Yeah. I just feel so rejected and brushed to one side in a way. And I can't stop asking, why? Why me? What have I done?
FurleyLavandria
5 years, 6 months ago
you did nothing
ppl just  tend to be jerks to ppl that are different
instead of being open minded :/
nh63879
5 years, 6 months ago
Yeah you're right there. I know I had a friend on FA that has over time become one of the 'popular kids'. Now when I tried to speak to them, they would ignore me or walk over me. It's that which hurts the most. I'm not going to name and shame them, as I'd be stopping down to their level. Instead I'm just going to leave them and walk away like a man.
FurleyLavandria
5 years, 6 months ago
it sucks you had something like that happen TwT
ppl like tthat are just bad
pentrep
5 years, 6 months ago
I don't know that this will help but I've been a loner my entire life. Sometimes it's better to be alone. Though it seems like you want companionship. So maybe you should try getting out and putting yourself out there? You can't always win. It's either you fly solo or try to make friends. Depends on what kind of person you want to be and what kind of life you want to live. As always I'm here to talk if you need me. Sorry if I didn't help. XD
nh63879
5 years, 6 months ago
I just know it's harder for me being social. As I have asperger's syndrome. It's basically a form of autism that has an affect on communication and social skills. Though despite that one with it makes up for that in creativity, logic and so much more. I'm not desperate for attention all the time. I'm not really one fore the gaming scene or other things like most furs are. But I know what I am. And deep down I'm a nice person, I'm kind and friendly. I'm mature for my age. I'm caring and supportive. Even if I'm not always 'in the room', I'm still there. Yes there are days where I don't like being with company and prefer to be by myself and then there are days when I do like to be with others. But that's basically natural in some way I should think.
roughgi
5 years, 6 months ago
Hey buddy if you need a friend a chat to I'm always online. And hugs big guy  
nh63879
5 years, 6 months ago
Thank you my friend. I'm mostly around as well. Even if it doesn't look or feel like I'm there, I am still here. It's just there are days when I like to be alone and to myself and other days when I like to be with others. I only wish everyone I know out there could see this and respect that. Then again one does have to learn the hard way what people can be like in reality.

I'm sorry if I'm going off on one here. I'm still not in full control of my emotions right now or have any such control on what to say.
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