Another personal journal, this, so if you don't give a shit you can ignore it XP. Since being kicked off twitter I've had some real time to get away from all the nonsense, all the political bullshit. I was also contacted by an old friend, concerned that I was going rather batshit. I'd say the concern was justified, I have been going rather round the bend over the past year or so. When my opinions changed regarding my political positions around 2016, they did so while I was still hurting like a motherfucker from the breakup of an 11 year relationship, so the backlash from my few cartoons came at the worst possible time. Anger is a way I push through pain, so the worse I felt the angrier I got, which led to me being like a lit stick of fucking dynamite almost constantly. Now that I've had a few weeks away from everything, just focusing on drawing commissions and taking walks around my local village, reading and all that, I have a clearer perspective. My friend also helped hammer the point home. The fact is, I have been a really toxic person, a ball of bitterness, pain and hate, and it isn't pretty. I'm not proud of it, though I could have done worse, I think I've done more than enough. My humour and capacity for kindness were almost completely destroyed and all the total garbage people have been inventing about me hasn't helped at all. Anyway, to get down to brass tacks, I need to make an effort to be a better person in my interactions with people. I can't change overnight but at least I know what I'm doing wrong and what needs to be sorted out. I'm very, very tired of all the bullshit, the insecurity and the lashing out like some wounded animal.
Huge thank you to those of you who have kept up your support, remained customers of my artwork despite what a prick I've been, you're golden! I'll have more ych scenarios coming in the future like the beach one, not auctions but set price commissions that are less expensive than my usual work. So far the beach ych has done rather well, which is lovely, so expect more things of that sort in the future. I'm always open for other work too so feel free to get in touch any time. Be seeing you!
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14 Jul 2018 00:51 CEST
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