a rough road of love, and at what cost? it feels like i was trying to find love, my true love, and what, by using others?.... sigh. at least thats what it felt like, searching for love-
it started with one of my friends, we hung out some, made out abit, but we never shared the same interests, really or saw eachother much... so that broke off pretty quick, hmnn.
then another friend, we lasted longer, he had also introduced me to the furry fandom, we did things together, porn things, more with this one, then he and i broke because of distance and never being able to see one another. (parental reasons)
then another friend, allowed me to experience more of the porn life,buttsexors, mannn i was clueless, and still am, i just make a joke out of porn anymore XD;, we got into arguments alot, kinda, and kept being mad at one another sometimes, and one day, i broke it because i just didnt feel it'd work out,
then, i went back to the other, the one that introduced me to the furry fandom. we had about- one two days tops? before i felt i didnt make the right choice getting into a relation so soon
...my heart has suffered alot of heartbreak, and those whose hearts i hurt only got hurt worse then mine...
i regret that i had to even do that to them, also...
. he.... i couldn't believe how well we clicked together, his quirks his random sillyness, his lolpervyness, and everything about him... ive- never felt so close to someone in my life, to even say that id need anyone else but him, he convinced me, through his actions and personality, a few weeks after the break up, that i could be in a relation, that i had found true love, that the heartbreaking WOULDNT happen again....
always trying to make me smile, and i too for him, and also we share alot of eachothers quirks, sometimes, even repeat one anothers sillys~ x3 he really feels, like my everything <3
we do everything together, from games, to drawing to simple chit chat even online~ and camming! for hugs, and other various things >u> /BAM- like nakie hugs! c:
all i can say is it was a rough road, and my heart has many scars from the journey, but at the end, it was worth it, because i found you, Loggie love x3 <33 i hope we can love eachother and have a great relationship foralways~ <3