Hello everybody. I was hoping I never had to talk about this but a certain someone pushed me so far that I have to now. It is quite a bit personal and if I made this a little about myself I apologize. Yes I have Mommy issues, and I had this for as long as I can remember. Like on cartoons and movies I watched as a kid, if a Mother was kidnapped I would get upset and even though she was rescued that fact that the villain would even want her in the first place still made my blood boil. And I think the reason for that is I really love my Mother and really hate the thought anything like that happen to her. The issues got even worse when my parents divorced when I was 9 and already moved on. The only real problem I had with the woman my Dad was with is that she's a bit nuts, as for the man my Mom was with is a whole different story. I actually felt hatred for this man because I felt he doesn't deserve her because he was an alcoholic and a criminal. He also had a son who despite is a lot younger then me keeps on picking on me even more so then my older brother and sister ever did. One time when I was 12 years old and was and going through some awkward things because of the hormones he came to me and told me " Your Mom is beautiful and you are ugly and nobody will ever love you because you are ugly." I bet you can't even imagine how upset I was when he said that. And it scarred me to this day. In 2005 my Mom and this man broke up and for good and decides to stay single for the rest of her life which I am so happy about but the damage was done. Every time a man tries to flirt with her or even checks her out I would give that man an evil eye that scares him off. When I joined Deviant Art back at 2007 I saw some good art, some not so much, some I agree with and some I don't. Over the years I learned to ignore the art I don't like and move on in all 3 websites I'm on, Deviant Art, Fur Affinity and Inkbunny. I also learn the term "MILF" and I'll admit it I didn't like it but I tried to ignore it and try to move on. But then I saw Vanilla the Rabbit fetish pics like I said I tried to ignore them and actually faved the ones that was not over the top. But as time went on they got worse and worse I kinda snapped at one person that is so obsessed with her that he didn't know when to stop or even tone it down a bit. I am sorry that I did that, I really am. I have kinda grown out of being upset after seeing that kind of thing of some Mothers but not all obviously. It's the Mothers of girls that are the youngest that's gonna get me off because it straight up reminds me of me and my Mom. Not only that Vanilla actually does remind me of my Mom and Cream the Rabbit reminds me of myself. That's one reason I don't ship Vanilla with Vector because it reminds me of my Mom and that man, that's one reason why I draw a lot of Cream pics. Because whenever I look at Cream I see myself, and when I see Vanilla I see my Mother. Now I know I can never get people to stop drawing what they draw, it's their freedom to do so. But it's also my freedom to say how I feel about it. And hopefully have some people understand why I went though that. I bet you're thinking I'm so crazy huh? Feeling this way about characters that are not even real. But let me put it this way, when real life sucks so hard, you need an escape.
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17 Nov 2017 21:24 CET
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