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So I just got news a close friend tried to kill themself today. The police found them thankfully in time and they are alive and are being monitored now.

I can't say I'm really shocked they tried to commit suicide as they had personal problems they were dealing with but it doesn't make things any easier to deal with.

I'm dealing but, I just felt like I needed to talk to some one and my family aren't exactly compassionate so I have to put up an act with them. I'll be okay but I just need some time to see what happens next.

Thanks for listening.
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Added: 6 years, 4 months ago
 
Turtleman
6 years, 4 months ago
Oh my God. Spec, I'm sorry man. I can't even begin to imagine what you must be going through with this news.
specterHSC
6 years, 4 months ago
To be brutally honest, I went from depression to anger and collected.  Called an old Navy buddy and he helped me collect my head.

Now is just waiting to hear how they are doing from the family after the doctor's make sure they are okay.
Turtleman
6 years, 4 months ago
Well, it's good to hear that you collected yourself so quickly. Honestly, if I were in your shoes, I wouldn't even speak, let alone type this journal, for weeks if not months.

I'm not sure if I'm overstepping my bounds, and if I am, do tell me, but what did your friend try to do? Was it a hanging, gunshot, overdose, cutting?

If you don't want to answer, then please, don't. I wouldn't if I were in your position.
specterHSC
6 years, 4 months ago
You are fine. And over dose on booze and pills.  I know if I keep this inside it will just ear me up. Took years to realize showing emotion is not a sign of weakness and sometimes you need to be vocal. Something I wish my friends did.

I was pretty close to suicide my self one time be I caked prevention help line. I'm grateful everyday I did
Turtleman
6 years, 4 months ago
I'm glad you did as well. You're an amazing person, and we'd all be missing out if you, well, you know.
specterHSC
6 years, 4 months ago
I appreciate the sentiment. But please, send your thoughts to my friend. They need them more now then me.
Turtleman
6 years, 4 months ago
I will.
TheMRCAGDL
6 years, 4 months ago
Oh my... I'm sorry to hear that...
specterHSC
6 years, 4 months ago
Yeah. It came out of no where. When I saw their mom call me I knew something happened but I was hoping I was wrong.  Right nite I'm calling people to get it off my chest.  It's helping.
TheMRCAGDL
6 years, 4 months ago
I see...
specterHSC
6 years, 4 months ago
Yeah. Doing better but still worried. Not knowing and being unable to do anything is what makes you go crazy.
TheMRCAGDL
6 years, 4 months ago
I know, I hope he recovers...
FoxyLove
6 years, 4 months ago
Sorry to hear this my friend. I knew a friend who did take their life.
specterHSC
6 years, 4 months ago
It's never easy to deal with. I'm just glad they found them before it was too late. Hopefully they get the help they need.
AlexanderValentine
6 years, 4 months ago
I'm glad your friend was found in time and rescued. Having a good friend that you care about deeply die in such a manner can break even the hardiest of men...

Hopefully he'll have a speedy recovery and you two can hang some time with him in the future? *Hugs on, squeezes firmly*
specterHSC
6 years, 4 months ago
*hugs back* thanks. They are sadly out of state so I honestly don't know when I will get to see them again. I really only found out cause their mom called me.

All I can do now is wait and see what happens.
graymuzzle
6 years, 4 months ago
(hugs)
You are both in my thoughts during this difficult time.
specterHSC
6 years, 4 months ago
Thanks. Hopefully your medical issues are resolved soon too.
GFHCDK76
6 years, 3 months ago
I have been there myself once or twice, on both ends of it. When younger I had my bouts of wanting to give up on life. Then again just about six years ago. I got a few things together for a horrible overdose on something certain to kill (I will spare the details of what it was), and took a long two hour walk in the woods, miles in, to find a spot to take it. I just simply didn't.

I also saw a friend a few more years before then whom wish to do the same as what your friend tried to do, and add slitting his wrists to the mix of what he intended to do. An intervention was made by those there at the time he was mentally loosing it. It's been years since I have seen him however, not sure if he is around anymore or not. -.-

It always saddens me to know how just trying to live a good life can take a wrong turn for some people.

Finding work one can live with doing can be a real problem for many. There is not a one person who likes working at the job place I work at. And a few of them have said they hate their lives enough to just end it. My work place is one of the reasons why they said that.

I can't help but wonder how many go off the deep end just out of feeling an absence of basic companionship with another within their life. There are so many I do know of who do feel that way, but live so far apart from each other, there is no real world connection between them outside of being online. For some, that is simply not enough.

It is odd to me, being in such an interconnected world as the net has helped in making it so, far too many of us are still like lonely people in a crowd.

I know, that is a little beside the point, I don't even know why your friend tried to end it... Could be many reasons, not just one. Some of them could be reasons not so easy to fix, like where a person lives, and whom they live with and why...

Hopefully your friend will not try it again someday. I feel for you man, and for your friend. -.-
specterHSC
6 years, 3 months ago
They are doing better if not medicated out the ass. But yes, it was do to feeling lonely.

Not to take away from anyone but some times it really does depend on how well you know how to cope with matters. I been on that cliff edge too and almost did it once but some thing told me to call the suicide hot line and just talk to some one.

My friend, I know they bottle up a lot of their emotions and its not good for them. There is only so many times you can tell them to let that stress go and talk to some one. I'm not happy they tried to do what they did but I'm glad they are getting the help they need now.
GFHCDK76
6 years, 3 months ago
Them feeling lonely was just a guess, I see so many online speak of it.

You're right, it can depend on if a person knows how to cope with a given situation. As for dealing with my place of work, one just deals with it. But putting up with abusive behavior form another, even if just verbal abuse. It's not so easy to just say, oh' that's just life, and roll with it.

I find something greatly wrong with the fact humans are the alpha species in this world and can about near bend it to our will to a point. We have such advance tech also, and yet, many of us find our selves in a state of need. To me this has much to do with our worldly views and way of living, not so much that we lack the ability to set things up so none goes without.

I hear you. Shoving aside the pain one can feel at times just to function is not always the best solution. It can build up to a breaking point. Talking it over can and does help. Always depends on what it is about however.

Stay frosty.
specterHSC
6 years, 3 months ago
So after reading all that I have to ask, are you current of former Military? If so, what branch?
GFHCDK76
6 years, 3 months ago
No, a basic labor job. But one that is demanding with what many here thinks is ridiculous requirements. At times, one may even feel like they are in the military. Some are even planing to join the military just to get out this.
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