I can never seem to do things right anymore, things always get fucked up because of me. I had wanted to get art stuff done before Halloween, I wanted to get a lot of stuff done this month, that is not happening as I have 2 tests in classes next week and have been working on school and working on school and working on school. When I have a bunch of other stuff on my plate that are not art related there is just no way I can do anything art related anymore. I honestly can not look forward in the future thinking everything will be ok in regards to what I have to take care of in person. I will fuck up, I will be in a shit situation that I have to just accept financially. Need to take a loan, need to look at possibly failing classes, need to look at just being a fucking disappointment to everyone especially to myself. It is not from a lack of trying either, it’s coming from the fact that I am a failure of a person.
I sure do look forward to all that backlash because that sure does sound fun doesn't it? (Sarcasm) Feel like shit for being a garbage human being.
I am on a permanent art hiatus now until I don’t fucking know. Goodbye, carry on like nothing happened.
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27 Oct 2017 04:29 CEST
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