And still mildly frustrated, but most of it is because:
*There are people that get 20+ comments on their art in a day while I might get 4 in a month even though I try really fucking hard to promote the shit out of it to get some recognition
*People in IRC tend to ignore me by highlighting someone else when I'm trying to talk, as if I didn't say anything, and it pisses me off
* People in IRC don't seem to care much about the blog posts I make but if someone like Tweaker makes a blog post, people are all over that shit, and I have yet to discern if it's genuine interest or ass-kissing, and nobody even clicked the picture I linked last night, I had to put it up here just so people would notice it
*3/4s of my watchers don't seem too interested in anything I post.
And yeah, I really do think it's because I don't kiss ass, I know someone who is all about kissing ass, he's a professional ass-kisser and gets all kinds of attention from it (I've actually grown to not like them for several reasons, this being one of them) but I like to think I have more dignity than that. Can't an artist be appreciated without sucking everyone's e-dick?
And it apparently isn't how well I draw, because there are people that draw shitty MS Paint fanart or can't even draw at all and upload commisions they got that have more watchers than me, I think I deserve recognition if people like that are getting it. I'm not trying to be hateful but that's how I feel about it, considering how I busted my ass for half my life just to learn how to draw decent anatomy. I'd like some payoff.
And moreover, I'd like for people in IRC to stop talking like I don't fucking exist. Really, why the fuck do people do that?
It's probably because I can't talk about politics or any of that boring shit. I don't think anyone wants to hold a conversation with me because I'm not worldly and don't care to be. (You'd think in a furry channel linked to a fucking gaming site, people would be content to talk about video games. >_>) Nobody wants to fucking talk about ANYTHING I do and I can't talk about anything anyone else does and they probably just ignore me and pretend I don't exist because of that.
And would it kill people to read my blog posts? Thanks to the people that do but EVERYWHERE I post them, they get ignored. It's starting to get depressing. I have tried channels, forums, and here, they literally get no attention. -_-
6 years, 9 months ago
11 Jan 2012 09:38 CET