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Well, over the last year and two months, I've amassed 67 +watchers, a few of which have been total surprises, which is about half of what I had at my peak in 3.5 years at FurAffinity, so I'd say I'm doing OK... :)

Anyhoo, for those who don't know, I'm a writer, because, in complete honesty, I can't draw. The artwork here in my gallery was all drawn for me, either as gifts, requests or commissions. (Commissions, like the money I get to pay for them, is rare, sadly.) There are a few musical pieces here, too...and one Flash clock that was partly made for me, and partly modified by me (colours, fonts), so it qualifies for both sides of the "By You, For You" rule. :P (Yes, the clock works- It's based on decimal time, something I have an interest in, and works off your computer's local clock. I need a proper thumbnail for it, though. :P )

I still have some 38 pics I need to upload, and should get around to it, someday.

I've been involved at various levels of the furry community for just about 27 years, now, and Star Trek & general SF fandoms for 38... Yes, I feel that old, even though I'm only 46.

I don't do requests or commissions, but I honestly don't mind suggestions, particularly if the idea sounds cool. :) There are things I won't do that some furs would in whatever artform that might "squick" some, and some things I don't mind or certainly consider that certainly qualify as "controversial"- I think my +faves might give some hint. :P

I am honest about myself, though certainly quiet- I'm not going to wave banners and shoot off fireworks to say I'm this or that. I'll leave that to the more insecure amongst us, although I don't consider myself less insecure than I seem. :)

I'm not important, and I'm comfortable with that. However, I'd like some of what I do to have some importance, not for my sake, but for the sake of whatever project it may be, whether Writing Challenges or leptictidiums.

For those who like keeping score, I'm transgendered (MtF crossdresser- I don't have the guts to go further), quite heterosexual, and not in any relationship whatsoever. (Just as well. :P )

I like squirrels, skunks, bunnies, mice and leptictidiums, though the observant amongst my +watchers will notice I'm a bit squirrel-obsessed.

Someone very important to me, I've always saw her as a red squirrel type- I haven't talked to her in years, though. I wouldn't be surprised at all if she read this, though.

I still haven't decided what to do with the friends-only feature here, but those who want to +friend me here, I don't mind.

Oh, yes-- If there's something you want to know about me, my characters, this or that, controversial or otherwise, I don't mind, either here or in PM. The touchier subjects might be better suited to PM, though. But do ask. I do have a lot on my mind. :P

Well, that's it for this bit of randomness for now- Still trying to figure out what direction to take my Writing Challenges, which in all honesty, I don't think many are that interested in, sadly.

You can find me on deviantART and SoFurry-- I might post all my stories on SoFurry and some on dA, although I only have two submissions on dA at the mo, and none on SoFurry... (Ever noticed the SoFurry logo, which is meant to resemble the letters SO with foxfur patterns, looks like a furry sperm? :P )

And lastly....

Squirrelcheese!

d.m.f.
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Added: 6 years, 11 months ago
 
LupineAssassin
6 years, 11 months ago
*HUGS*
dmfalk
6 years, 11 months ago
:)

d.m.f.
Shokuji
6 years, 11 months ago
That's quite forthcoming. =O Very brave of you to make a journal like this as you potentially open yourself up for attack (which I sincerely hope doesn't happen). It's interesting to know how different people are. To a degree I think most people will think others are somewhat like themselves unless they suspect otherwise.. which is a bit unhealthy because this world is a colorful place and lots of interesting people live in it. =3

I'm not sure what to ask, I just apologize for not participating in any of your challenges or anything.. perhaps that will change sometime. I've just been so focused on the visual arts lately (just like most furries), yet I feel bad when the story arts and music arts are neglected quite a bit ( by myself included >_<;; ).

Either way, I hope you're happy with how things are, and I hope you work on the things you work on because they're enjoyable. Do it for yourself and no one else so you never get disappointed. =3
dmfalk
6 years, 11 months ago
I haven't been flamed or harassed in a very long time. It helps I have a simple rule to handle such: No replies; report; block/ban. Simple enough, wouldn't you say? Dwelling on the negative is negative energy. Negative energy is wasted energy. I prefer to focus on the positive. :)

I should note I prefer to treat everyone with the same respect, regardless of age, unless I have good reason not to.

I will not coerce, force, or commit any act of violence against anyone. Harming others for the sake of pleasure actually does offend me, and I won't do anything without consent. I refuse to intentionally do harm or cause trouble. It's for that particular philosophy that I often wish I could live somewhere isolated- an island or a planet, perhaps, if such an option was available. If I am a monster because of certain feelings, which I've tried to escape from for most of my life, it probably be best if I remain isolated. (Not all who are like me are bad people, but there's enough out there to raise the noise level that makes us all look bad.) I do have what I think are controversial views on the whole subject, but I don't live in an era where the honest truth about it is acceptable. I'm not going to look for it actively, but if it happens, it happens-- As long as it doesn't violate my resolve of not doing harm or causing trouble. I'm perfectly willing to sacrifice my own happiness- and accept myself for who and what I am- just so that there would be no trouble. I can't deny it, though- Lying about it to others, the Creator, and most of all, to one's self, is wrong. I wish I never had those feelings, so I'd be more acceptable in the eyes of others. :(

Aside from a few certain controversial subjects, I can honestly say my tastes are incredibly tame. :P

If you do have anything to ask at any time, about me or my characters, just ask- I won't pressure you or anyone. (I'll offer this, though: Amy has the same hangup as me, and my anthro Mimzy covers two of my interests.)

I hope one day you do feel you can participate in my Challenges- You CAN make suggestions for future Challenges, though, even if you don't have any stories, yourself! :)

Happiness evades me, but yes, I prefer to write for my own sake, and hope that what I write makes others smile or laugh-- I don't like to dwell on the negative, preferring to offer only positive energy to those willing read my stories, in the hope that in return, there would be good Karma. (Anger? I'm rarely angry, and never wish ill will on anyone, except those who bring suffering upon others-- Nothing breaks my heart more than to know someone is suffering, moreso if it's of my doing, intentional or otherwise. Life should be filled with joy.)

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Shokuji
6 years, 11 months ago
I'm glad the trolls have left you alone. Don't feed the trolls is usually the best policy. They're not going to listen to reason anyways.

" I will not coerce, force, or commit any act of violence against anyone. Harming others for the sake of pleasure actually does offend me, and I won't do anything without consent. I refuse to intentionally do harm or cause trouble.
I suppose if they enjoy the coercion and/or force it's not so bad. But I'm suspecting you're talking about something rather specific here. I have my guesses, all I'll say is that they were wrong about homosexuals, I believe they're wrong about other things too. </cryptic>

" It's for that particular philosophy that I often wish I could live somewhere isolated- an island or a planet, perhaps, if such an option was available. If I am a monster because of certain feelings, which I've tried to escape from for most of my life, it probably be best if I remain isolated. (Not all who are like me are bad people, but there's enough out there to raise the noise level that makes us all look bad.)
Unless you're talking about MtF stuff here, I continue my cryptic talk; I highly doubt you're a danger to anyone, especially after what you just said above. If you realize "no" means no, then you're already about 90% there. I don't think there's anything wrong with enjoyable interactions with others. =3

" I do have what I think are controversial views on the whole subject, but I don't live in an era where the honest truth about it is acceptable. I'm not going to look for it actively, but if it happens, it happens-- As long as it doesn't violate my resolve of not doing harm or causing trouble. I'm perfectly willing to sacrifice my own happiness- and accept myself for who and what I am- just so that there would be no trouble. I can't deny it, though- Lying about it to others, the Creator, and most of all, to one's self, is wrong. I wish I never had those feelings, so I'd be more acceptable in the eyes of others. :(
Ok, you must be talking about what I think you are. Going back to the homosexuality thing, they didn't accept that either, they thought it was horrible and wrong. It took 30 years to get past that, but that was before the internet. I think we'll see much faster turn-arounds these days on stuff like that. You know what hurts others and I'm fairly sure (based on what you said) that you'd never do anything to harm another. And who cares what others think? Someone is going to find something they don't like about others, and usually it's not even rational. If they can't see the difference of what you are and what they think you are, that's on them. Ignore them, live your life, be happy as you only get to live once.

( And if I'm totally climbing the wrong tree on this, I apologize completely and please ignore everything I said. ^_^;;; )

" If you do have anything to ask at any time, about me or my characters, just ask- I won't pressure you or anyone.
I appreciate the offer, I think that most of my questions would be made in a PM to avoid any possible problems.

" I hope one day you do feel you can participate in my Challenges- You CAN make suggestions for future Challenges, though, even if you don't have any stories, yourself! :)
I really may! No promises but it's something that I may try to do.

" I don't like to dwell on the negative, preferring to offer only positive energy to those willing read my stories, in the hope that in return, there would be good Karma. (Anger? I'm rarely angry, and never wish ill will on anyone, except those who bring suffering upon others-- Nothing breaks my heart more than to know someone is suffering, moreso if it's of my doing, intentional or otherwise. Life should be filled with joy.)
It sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders. =3 I think you'll be okay, just make sure you take your own advice to heart. [hugs]
dmfalk
6 years, 10 months ago
" I'm glad the trolls have left you alone. Don't feed the trolls is usually the best policy. They're not going to listen to reason anyways.

I've been lucky so far....

" I suppose if they enjoy the coercion and/or force it's not so bad. But I'm suspecting you're talking about something rather specific here. I have my guesses, all I'll say is that they were wrong about homosexuals, I believe they're wrong about other things too. </cryptic>

And the transgendereds.

" Unless you're talking about MtF stuff here, I continue my cryptic talk; I highly doubt you're a danger to anyone, especially after what you just said above. If you realize "no" means no, then you're already about 90% there. I don't think there's anything wrong with enjoyable interactions with others. =3

*nod* If only it were that easy.... :P

" Ok, you must be talking about what I think you are. Going back to the homosexuality thing, they didn't accept that either, they thought it was horrible and wrong. It took 30 years to get past that, but that was before the internet. I think we'll see much faster turn-arounds these days on stuff like that. You know what hurts others and I'm fairly sure (based on what you said) that you'd never do anything to harm another. And who cares what others think? Someone is going to find something they don't like about others, and usually it's not even rational. If they can't see the difference of what you are and what they think you are, that's on them. Ignore them, live your life, be happy as you only get to live once.

( And if I'm totally climbing the wrong tree on this, I apologize completely and please ignore everything I said. ^_^;;; )

(You're on the mark!) All I can say here is, while I cannot say that I've done it, I can say I haven't, although I have been tempted, and even been offered. Any further, and it might be preferable to go to PM on the subject. :P

" I appreciate the offer, I think that most of my questions would be made in a PM to avoid any possible problems.

Please do! I welcome the questions! :) And no, I don't get alot of PMs, so it won't be like flooding me. :)

" I really may! No promises but it's something that I may try to do.

I welcome it! :)

" It sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders. =3 I think you'll be okay, just make sure you take your own advice to heart. [hugs]

I'm not sure how much longer I can resist it and come to grips with it- As I said before, if it happens, it happens. If at all possible, I'd prefer no trouble or grief, just so my burden doesn't become someone else's- like on my family. :P

d.m.f.
CyberCornEntropic
6 years, 11 months ago
Going by the title, you must be going dotty in your middle age. :p

It could be worse.  At least people like to talk to you.  A lot of the time, it seems like the only message I get in general is an implied, "Shut up and go away," (and that's before I even say or do anything, nor am I being a jerk or acting obnoxious) only other people can't be bothered to make the effort to say it. :(
dmfalk
6 years, 11 months ago
Ooops, see below- Forgot to link the reply back to you. :P

d.m.f.
dmfalk
6 years, 11 months ago
The title actually refers to my tendency to use extended ellipses, or as in this case, I simply had no grand title, and simply wanted to say some things that were crossing my mind at the time... :P But yes, lots of loopy, colourful dottiness cluttering my life- Should probably go back to the sanity of the Codex Seraphinianus... :)

Actually, I think you're interesting to talk to, here, and you certainly have a creative mind.... And didn't Norther just pass? I had another nutty squirrel story, but.... I don't know... :P I really need to write more... :P Anyhoo...

Of the 67 +watchers I have, I think less than 10 ever bother to say much of anything, and only 4 or 5 on a regular basis. (And you deserve more +watchers- You're an excellent storyteller, and pretty good with artwork as well- Better than quite a few around here, I might add. ...But don't sell yourself to the Sonic/Pokemon/Digimon machine for the sake of more +watchers and +faves- It ain't worth it.)

Me? The only thing i've got going for me is my writing, and a handful of interesting characters.... And the squirrels... LOTS of squirrels.... o.o

d.m.f.
(wondering if Amy should part ways from the GC forums or not... Oh, well...)
Shokuji
6 years, 11 months ago
(you forgot to hit reply, the person above your post didn't get a notification that you replied to them)
CyberCornEntropic
6 years, 11 months ago
No worries.  I've used the ellipses/dotty joke before.  Usually, the other person laughs or just gets dottier. :p

Thank you.  I'm glad you don't mind me being around. :)  I've only got five Watchers, of whom two (you and DOtter) comment at all, much less regularly.  Although it probably doesn't help that those I watch are also comparatively few, but even on FurAffinity and DeviantArt where I watch more people, I don't get many comments.  I probably should comment more myself, but it usually seems I'm either ignored (which I generally prefer) or the reply sounds like I'm annoying them with my comment. :(

Norther is this next Sunday (January 15).  The Full Moon was on Monday, so you haven't missed it yet.

You might as well also put your squirrel story up and see who gets bonked on the noggin by tossed off-the-walnuts.  Clearing it out of your system might just help you write more, too, maybe.

I've already been through my Sonic the Hedgehog phase some 15-20 years ago, before I learned there was an internet to go on.  Digimon wasn't my cup of tea, and while I'm not against Pokémon, I doubt I'd do much of anything with it.  Besides, didn't you mean the "porn machine" instead?

If you're not really getting much out of the Gene Catlow forums, then you can probably slip away.  I did years ago when I got one of those realizations that make me suddenly abandon forums, the realization that I was pretty much an odd man out, that I just didn't belong there nor contributed anything others would see as worthwhile.  So I left, intending to come back later, but never doing so.  I doubt anyone ever noticed.  (On an unrelated note, it seems Gene Catlow is taking commissions again on FurAffinity.)
dmfalk
6 years, 10 months ago
You're both a worthwhile writer/artist, so naturally, I like to comment. And your comments are rarely bothersome- Believe me, I appreciate them! :)

I'll never understand why you don't get more +watchers-- Oh, well... :/

d.m.f.
CyberCornEntropic
6 years, 10 months ago
" I'll never understand why you don't get more +watchers-- Oh, well... :/

I think the primary reason I don't get more Watchers is because I don't promote my stuff heavily.  Often, I just upload it and hope somebody sees it eventually.  Occasionally, I might show a picture or two to a select few, but that's hardly enough self-promotion.

Unless I want to get into pornography or microwave some more Peeps (apparently torturing poor, defenseless Peeps is more popular than erect Polyphemi :p ) or get more aggressive in my self-promotion (which feels too much like lying a lot of the time), then I guess I'll just have to plug away as I have been.
dmfalk
6 years, 10 months ago
The only "promotion" I ever do involves suggesting to other writers to check out my Writing Challenges. Otherwise, I rarely mention my own writing outside my own journals (and of course, uploading my stories), and let that be. Anything else, I get the occasional +watcher who is just reciprocating my +watch or someone decides to check my gallery out after a comment I may make on someone else's journal or submission- rarely if ever about writing, although more often of late, it's comments concerning squirrels. :)

I'm nutty that way. :)

d.m.f.
CyberCornEntropic
6 years, 10 months ago
Self-promotion isn't just waving your stuff around, desperately hoping someone will notice.  It's also being recognizable, so that they'll know it's you when they run across your stuff.  Then they'll be more likely to stick around and see what else you've got as well as knowing you well enough to say something to you.  That's pretty much what you're already doing.
dmfalk
6 years, 10 months ago
In my case, most don't really know me-- My days of being a "Big Name" in the furry community have long since past. Most writers and artists do start out unknown, though... (And it's not for lack of trying, though-- I've tried often to tell others they should give your stories a try, nit to mention you're not a bad artist at all-- You're hardly at the level of "crap" around here, and believe me, there's alot here who are Just That Bad. :P )

d.m.f.
CyberCornEntropic
6 years, 10 months ago
You don't have to be a Big Name to get noticed, just be out there enough for someone to like what they see.

Also, thank you for telling others about my stuff. :) It's appreciated.
dmfalk
6 years, 10 months ago
I'll repeat what I've said: You're good. More should notice your storytelling and your silliness in both your pics and stories. :) Moon Rabbit *prodprod* is a worthwhile and engaging read-- Writing Challenge or not, I still want to read what happens! :)

d.m.f.
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